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SuzyM22nd October 2021 at 3:25pm

Lockdown #6 partly ended overnight; as most “non-essential” retail is still closed (much to their and my frustration), the lockdown will not properly end until all shops re-open, a week or so away.

Melbourne passed Buenos Aires’ world record for time spent in COVID-19 lockdown on 4/10 (267 days at that point), a very miserable “achievement”. Below, a summary of the LD periods so far:

  • Lockdown 1: March 30 to May 12, 2020 – 43 days
  • Lockdown 2: July 8 to October 27, 2020 – 111 days
  • Lockdown 3: February 12-17, 2021 – 5 days
  • Lockdown 4: May 27-June 10, 2021 – 14 days
  • Lockdown 5: July 15-27, 2021 – 12 days
  • Lockdown 6: August 5-October 26, 2021 – 82 days

On Wednesday 22/9, there was a big earthquake (magnitude 6) in Victoria at 9:15 am, felt across south-eastern Australia. My parents and I were at Southland SC. I did not feel it at all; my parents did (sitting in their car in the multi-level carpark for their coffee). I did notice staff standing outside shops (there for click-and-collect services), seeming agitated. It caused some damage to buildings, but no injuries. It is the largest earthquake here since European settlement!

Michele had to have surgery to remove a kidney stone! She had this procedure done on Wednesday, and is now at home recovering. Emails she sent to Dad:

  • 16/10: I’m having surgery to remove my kidney stone through the public system this coming Wednesday, sometime in the morning. It’s a short operation. That’s primarily my reason for going public because the wait time for surgery is short and it’s pretty much free. I then have a stent in place which is removed a few weeks later under a local anaesthetic. The hospital is less than 30 minutes from home which makes it easily accessible. It's a shame that the body can’t make stones that are priceless instead; a pearl wouldn’t go astray.
  • 20/10: Just home from hospital. All went fine and I have very good helpers at home (Tim and Trin). I’ll catch up with you more when I’m more awake.
  • Reply from Dad: 22/10: Hi Michele. Pleased to hear that all went well with your op. I would have liked to have told Mum at some stage, but I think it would have caused rather too much worry worry. I need to keep most subjects fairly simple these days because she tends to make mountains out of molehills if she doesn't grasp them strait away. One bright spot for her to look forward to is the opening of RSL next Tuesday for meals. It has been quite a major item of complaint, but our Premier can now rest assured that he will not get his nosed punched if he crosses her path, having done the right thing at last! I hope you make a quick recovery and can get back to normal again. It is good that you have two good helpers to keep you in order. Love to all and thanks be to God. Love, Dad
  • 22/10: I’m fine with Mum not knowing at all as she would never stop worrying about me even long after the event! I do have a follow up procedure in 2-3 weeks but I’m not certain exactly when this is. For now I have to live with some minor discomfort of a stent until this is removed. I have a few days before work so I have a chance to rest.
  • 22/10: I forgot to mention that with regards to Suzy knowing about my op. I can only think that she overheard your conversation with me. There’s no other way that she could have known about it.

The last one peeved me a little – am I not allowed to know, considering she is my sister? Why did she not want me to know in the first place?

SuzyM16th September 2021 at 3:42pm
  • Uncle Brian passed away over last Saturday/Sunday night, Sunday 12/9/2021, in the nursing home – Greenwood Manor Aged Care in Dingley – where he was residing. He was aged 94 years (born 4/4/1927). His funeral is tomorrow, but due to COVID rules only a few can attend. Mum will be going.
  • I had my second AstraZeneca vaccine dose on Saturday 4/9. Mum had her second today, and Dad had his second earlier this month. So we are now all fully vaccinated.
  • Another COVID-19 outbreak in Victoria, so into lockdown #6 (see Melbourne lockdowns summary table at the end of this entry), beginning 5 August, with no end in sight. The by-now usual harsh restrictions: 5 km radius travel boundary, 9 p.m. curfew, and, worst of all for me, all “non-essential” retail shut. So businesses are again hard-hit and some may not re-open. I am desperately missing browsing in bookstores. Like so many, I am really struggling mentally (not to mention physically), and am lethargic and dull.
  • More happily, Spring is here and the weather is slowly warming up – Winter seemed particularly cold and unbearable this year. Pink and white blossom has adorned the deciduous street trees.
  • On Tuesday 31/8, I came into Michele’s former bedroom, now Dad’s study, and saw Dad watching a Slow TV-style Internet video of a bus traveling its route in London on YouTube: Megabus: M11 London to Glasgow via Birmingham. Sounds mundane, but it is surprisingly mesmerising to watch! Just driving and driving on a long journey, looking at all the sights while traveling through London. A feeling of freedom, perhaps, particularly confined as we are in Melbourne lockdown. The UK seems to have a better approach to the Coronavirus: it is mostly opening up despite high case numbers. I rather wish we were there rather than Australia. (Dad emmigrated to Australia from England in the 1960s; I wish we could all have moved back to his homeland to live in. I have only visited there twice in my life – 1975 and 1978 – with my family when young, so my memories of those journeys are very fragmented. We stayed with my paternal grandmother in the Corner Cottage in the small village of Spridlington, Lincolnshire.) Watching the video was a nice bonding moment with Dad. I have subsequently been watching similar London bus routes on YouTube, such as those filmed this year by Britong Bisdak and Wanderizm. They are quite mundane, yet oddly soothing to watch. Seeing the buildings, the suburbs, passers-by going about their daily lives in a faraway place. No dramas, no inane commentary, just the sounds of the bus engine, muffled conversations of passengers. Wondering what it is like to live there. I would now rather like to visit or even reside there!
Metropolitan Melbourne lockdowns summary
NumberBeganEndedDuration in days
130/3/202012/5/202043
28/7/202027/10/2020111
312/2/202117/2/20215
427/5/202110/6/202114
515/7/202127/7/202112
65/8/2021 at 8pm.
Lockdowns began & ended at 11:59pm unless otherwise noted. Sources: Wikipedia; ABC News article

SuzyM17th July 2021 at 2:23pm

Lockdown #5 was imposed upon Victoria from Thursday 15/7 due to the virus spreading from a large outbreak in Sydney. 5 days initially, but there are ominous hints it will be extended to 2 weeks. I am furious and depressed yet again; cannot browse in shops as most are closed. I feel a constant low-level anxiety, exacerbated by the current lockdown and disruption to my usual routine. I am stressed all the time and can’t relax. I now hate Premier Daniel Andrews like no other politician, and his sycophantic followers also (mostly younger inner-city people).

SuzyM8th July 2021 at 2:42pm

Mid-winter. Very cold mornings this week (3°-5°C) but fine days, until next Sunday at least. Very difficult for me to function, though. My parents’ house (the one I have lived in all my life so far) is very old – a weatherboard – with poor insulation and it does not retain any heat, which is bad for electricity and gas bills. I dream of simply having a well-insulated apartment, but that is likely to remain a dream in my current situation.

I went to Chadstone SC by bus this morning; the route was introduced in June 2019 and goes right past our house, so getting to Chadstone and back now only takes 20 m or so, and is not an ordeal like trying to drive and park there was with Mum. The obvious disadvantage is being limited by the bus timetable (every half-hour or so on weekdays).

I feel lethargic and disinterested in everything; have not done anything productive on my computer for a few days. I just do daily chores and have my meals.

SuzyM28th June 2021 at 4:32am

Mum thankfully had no obvious adverse reactions to her AstraZeneca vaccine on Friday, apart from a little tiredness. I have read this is because the immune system is stronger in younger people, so they may display more severe symptoms, as I found out! So my parents and I are now half-vaccinated, with our second doses due in September.

TiddlyWiki fiddling

Been having some fun and frustrations with this application. I have learned how to create inline Scalable Vector Graphics art; very simple renderings of exoplanets for my current worldbuilding project – one example below of a gas giant, and the underlying SVG code (may only display in the latest browsers):

<svg viewBox="0 0 400 65" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg">
<rect x="0" y="0" rx="5" ry="5" width="100" height="60" fill="black"/>
<defs>
      <linearGradient id="LinearGradientBCW" x1="0" x2="0" y1="0" y2="1">
        <stop offset="0%" stop-color="#36a"/>
<stop offset="20%" stop-color="#7ca3d8"/>
<stop offset="40%" stop-color="#36a"/>
<stop offset="60%" stop-color="#7ca3d8"/>
<stop offset="80%" stop-color="#36a"/>
        <stop offset="100%" stop-color="#7ca3d8"/>
      </linearGradient>
      <radialGradient id="RadialGradientBCWshadow">
        <stop offset="50%" stop-color="#00000033"/>
        <stop offset="80%" stop-color="#00000080"/>
      </radialGradient>
  </defs>
  <circle cx="50" cy="30" r="30" stroke="#7ca3d8" stroke-width="0.1" fill="url(#LinearGradientBCW)" />
<line x1="5" y1="30" x2="95" y2="30" style="stroke: #7ca3d8;" stroke-width="1" stroke-linecap="round" />
<circle cx="65" cy="30" r="30" fill="url(#RadialGradientBCWshadow)" />
</svg>

I found out how to make a Javascript sortable table work in the static export of a TiddlyWiki, as described at the r/TiddlyWiki5 subReddit (Archive.org backup link).

After much puzzling and exasperation, I also solved an image embedding macro issue, where an embedded image would not display – turned out the syntax order seems to be important:

Note: the [images/$image$] in brackets must come last in the sequence, otherwise the macro won’t work.
\define imageEmbedWidth(alt,width,image)
[img alt=$alt$ loading=lazy width=$width$ [images/$image$]]
\end

So small things, but it feels good to solve such issues!

SuzyM25th June 2021 at 1:55pm

Mum had her first dose of the AstraZeneca vaccine administered today, so we shall see what side-effects she has (hopefully not as severe as mine). Summary of our reactions to the first dose:

  • Me (aged 50) - just about knocked me out for the day after: extreme fatigue, headache, nausea, loss of appetite. Like a 24-hour mini-flu; I could barely function. The next day I was mostly back to normal again (though now worrying about blood clots 😒).
  • Dad (in 80s): a bit of tiredness for a few days.
  • Mum (also in her 80s): just got her first dose today, so side-effects are yet to show up.

SuzyM22nd June 2021 at 4:58am

I seem to be mostly okay again after last Sunday’s vaccine side-effects, but later last week the Government decided to revise the recommended AstraZeneca vaccine age from over 50 to over 60! Due to the still-rare but serious blood clotting side-effect. Much to my exasperation! They did state that those who had had a first dose should still get the second, as the risk is then much lower. So I will have to worry about getting clots until a month or so has passed.

I keep vacillating between continuing my TiddlyWikis or not. I do find the program rather fun to use (despite some limitations), compared to others I have tried, and keep coming back to it.

SuzyM14th June 2021 at 4:09pm

AstraZeneca side/after-effects: yesterday (Sunday), the day after the vaccine was HELL – fatigue, nausea, headache, no appetite, could barely function. The worst I have felt in a long time! Today I seem to be feeling better 🤞 so hopefully the worst is over? (And that the second dose in 12 weeks won’t be so bad?) If I had known the effects would be that debilitating, I might have reconsidered having the vaccine.

Still feeling mostly back to normal; my appetite has returned and I had my normal meals. Timeline of yesterday:

  • Injection at 2:19 p.m. Saturday 12/6.
  • Felt a bit off that evening.
  • 13/6: Woke up feeling very off-color. Weak, headachy. No appetite. Barely managed to eat my normal breakfast; had oats and 2 slices dry toast (all I could stomach).
  • As the day progressed: utterly exhausted. One episode of nausea and vomiting. Headache. Appetite completely gone. Had to lie down every so often. Only had a pita pocket with an egg inside for lunch; could not even get through half a banana. Barely drank anything; only plain water. Even missed my usual coffee.
  • A miserable afternoon. Had boiled my usual ¼ cup rice for dinner with vegetables to microwave, but did not feel hungry, so left these.
  • Went to bed around 5 p.m. Fell asleep; slept until around 8:30 p.m. Awoke, feeling a little better, with some appetite. Was able to eat the rice by itself, along with my jelly and blueberry dessert.
  • This morning: felt much better, though still a bit fragile. Back to normal eating and activity.

Had my hair trimmed last Friday 11/6; it is still one length but now rather short! I can still braid it, but only just. It will grow again.

SuzyM12th June 2021 at 4:14pm

I had the first of two doses of the COVID-19 vaccine today! The AstraZeneca variant. Made an appointment at my local GP (East Bentleigh Medical Group). My second dose appointment is for 4/9/2021. I will have to be careful of side effects, so I will see how I go.

Lockdown #4 was eased last Friday, but with many restrictions still in place: 25 km travel radius, facemasks indoors and out, signing in to every shop now mandatory, either with a smartphone scanning a QR code, or a sign-in book for those without a phone (such as myself). This is a real annoyance as it puts one off casually wandering into shops and browsing. And there is the constant threat of further lockdowns, which only add to ongoing mental stress.

Gale-force winds last Wednesday 9/6 wreaked havoc across Victoria, with some regions such as the Dandenong hills hard-hit, due to the tall Mountain Ash tree forests there on steep slopes with houses built amongst these. Also severe flooding in some parts of the state, and power outages for thousands of residents.

SuzyM30th May 2021 at 2:43pm

This morning was the coldest Melbourne morning in 70 years:

Melbourne has shivered through its coldest May morning in more than 70 years, the Bureau of Meteorology said on Sunday. Temperatures fell to 1.7C, which is the lowest for the city since mid last century. It was the coldest May morning since 1949. But the coldest on record was May 29 in 1916 when temperatures plummeted to −1.1C. The BOM posted to Twitter on Sunday saying, “if you are less than 71 years and 364 days old, it is the coldest May Melbourne morning in your lifetime.”

Very difficult for me to arise and function, especially in a poorly-insulated weatherboard house. I have poor circulation and my hands get corpse-cold, which is extremely uncomfortable. Still, I am grateful I am not homeless (so far); I think I would give up and perish if I had to endure this weather outdoors as so many homeless do.

The day was clear, sunny and glorious, but still chilly. A lot of local people out walking and little vehicle traffic due to the 5 km lockdown boundary; Sundays are usually busy on the roads as many people go out. Frustratingly, there are hints that the lockdown might be extended again.

SuzyM27th May 2021 at 5:19pm

Another COVID-19 breakout in Melbourne, so back into a 7-day “snap lockdown” again – from midnight tonight. If it is not extended. A strict lockdown, so no non-essential shops open and a 5km limit on movement. An unnecessarily overzealous reaction in my view as businesses will again suffer and some may likely close for good. I did get the train into the City (Melbourne CBD) this morning for a quick visit to a couple of bookshops.

Weather is getting colder, with some low single-digit mornings forecast, which makes getting up in the early morning and functioning even more difficult.

SuzyM19th May 2021 at 3:03pm

Talked to Julie at her workplace in the IGA supermarket in Bentleigh, and found out that two of my cousin Heather’s daughters have, or are soon to have, children! Mimi was born to Brittany on 3/2/2021, and Paris is due on 4/8/2021, a girl also. So Heather is now a grandmother!

Do I regret not having children? Considering I never found a partner – all that romance stuff just never happened to me. I would not have wanted one when younger, and now the prospect is only an abstract notion as I have presumably passed the reproductive years. I wonder what a child of mine would have been like. To quote the poet Robert Frost, it is a “road not taken.”

SuzyM17th May 2021 at 1:50pm

I developed an awful pain in the center of my abdomen, from yesterday afternoon to this morning. Some nausea and one vomit, and upset at the other end too. I wonder if this were a abdominal migraine, as I can’t think of anything I ate that caused it. It is the worst I have felt for a while, and I could not find pain relief (painkillers seemed ineffective). The pain seems to have receded now, though I am still feeling fragile.

Forgot to mention that on the early morning of Friday 13/4, I had a spectacular and unexpected sighting this morning of what seemed to be Starlink satellites around 5:15 a.m., heading in a long line from SE to NE! They were very bright and there were dozens of them. It's the first time I have seen these. A lot of other people in Melbourne saw them too!

I watched a movie last week called Aniara, a gloomy but oddly compelling tale based on a 1956 Swedish poem about passengers on a cruise spaceship that is evacuating people from Earth to Mars due to a climate crisis, but it gets knocked off course and its passengers and crew, unable to be rescued, gradually go insane as years pass. They eventually reach a distant star system … over 5 million years later, when the ship’s inhabitants have long since perished.

SuzyM12th May 2021 at 2:47pm

Today is one year since my bicycle accident – going by date, but last year the day was a Tuesday. I feel unable and unwilling to ride now; I have lost all enthusiasm for it. I do have dreams of the accident sometimes, but distorted; the most recent featured some sort of white vehicle coming at me on the Nepean Highway. I often jerk awake (hypnic jerk) at the moment of impact.

Autumn weather is making itself felt, with the chilly mornings setting in and the leaves of deciduous trees turning reds and golds. Today is nice and sunny, which is always more cheering for me.

SuzyM7th May 2021 at 2:48pm

Michele arrived last Friday 30/4 and departed for Brisbane yesterday.

I got my influenza vaccine done at the local chemist last Friday also. The injection site on my left upper arm was sore for a couple of days, but that was all the side-effects I noticed. I guess I will try to get the COVID-19 vaccine when it becomes available, but the rollout so far has been erratic.

SuzyM27th April 2021 at 2:32pm

Mum and Dad returned from Kyneton last Friday 23/4. Mum had to get another root canal performed today.

Michele is traveling to Melbourne again this coming Friday and staying with us until the following Thursday, barring any snap lockdowns.

I booked in at the local chemist (Friday 10:30) for my annual flu vaccine – I have no idea when I will be able to get a COVID-19 vaccine, though!

I was locked out of one of my most-frequented forums, NASASpaceflight.com, for over a week as my password stopped working for some reason! I was unable to reset it (wrong email address as things turned out), but also unable to contact the help email address there. I had to resort to contacting the owner of the site’s Facebook page, but they also had trouble getting to the webmaster. However, he finally contacted me today and my access to my account was (hopefully!) restored. I signed up in December 2005, not long after the forum was opened, so I did not want to lose my post history there.

SuzyM19th April 2021 at 7:16am

Mum and Dad finally managed to leave on Friday for their week-long stay at Kyneton Bushland Resort, which they missed out on last year due to the COVID-19 lockdown. Unfortunately Mum put up a huge fuss (dementia-related, I think) and there was much uncertainty as to whether they would go, but they finally did (about an hour-and-a-half drive up there). Mum was practically having tantrums, moaning and carrying on; very stressful for Dad & I.

I am now exhausted and destressing a bit. It is much more peaceful by myself, but I am hampered by my being not able to drive – public transport is not always suitable and can be inconvenient. I am also not riding my bicycle anymore due to great reluctance, so that option has gone.

SuzyM6th April 2021 at 4:55am

Easter Monday – a public holiday, annoyingly; we have too many of these, and they feel especially onerous due to all the lockdown shutdowns of last year.

I patted a dog on Saturday! I was walking home past the Patterson Rd shops and a man walked past with his elderly dog, who was ambling along. He said the dog would not hurt me, so I impulsively stopped to pat him and asked a little about him (rather unusually for me!). The dog was 16, a mixed-breed (golden retriever, border collie and some others) and had very soft long black and tan fur, and a grey muzzle. He was quiet and seemed to like being patted.

Mum had to get a root canal done last week; she and Dad keep getting cavities. They keep eating sweets and biscuits (like many elderly do), so more tooth problems will be inevitable. At some point I think one should cut one’s losses and get dentures fitted. Implants would be more ideal, but they are hugely expensive.

I watched a 2019 space movie called Proxima, and enjoyed it! A quiet film, focused more on the mother-daughter relationship but that was well done and a nice change from big-budget Hollywood blockbusters. Reasonably realistic as much as I could ascertain, and I (naturally!) liked the scenes showing training at Star City. Definitely recommend it. (The Space Review article; forum thread at NASASpaceflight.com and at CollectSpace.com)

SuzyM24th March 2021 at 3:32pm

Michele departed this morning for her home in Brisbane; she caught the Melbourne-bound train from Patterson Station around 10 a.m., then a bus to Tullamarine Airport. She rang around 3:30 to say she had arrived at Brisbane Airport, so she is safely home, at least.

SuzyM21st March 2021 at 1:02pm

Michele made it here from Brisbane, arriving Friday. She last visited here last year, staying from Friday 7/2 to Sunday 9/2.

It will soon be a year since the extreme lockdown of Victoria (23/3/2020 entry). Still a ridiculous overreaction in my view, and the lockdown policy has devastated much of the world’s economy. The threat of more snap lockdowns still looms.

SuzyM17th March 2021 at 2:12pm

Haven’t written for a while; just have not felt like it. The year progresses slowly. The COVID-19 virus still dominates the world headlines. In Australia it has been mostly suppressed, but there are still breakouts – Premier Dan Andrews imposed a 5-day “circuit-breaker” lockdown from Saturday 13/2 to midnight of Wednesday 17/2, to the frustration of businesses. It seemed to work, but everyone remains on edge for another snap lockdown if and when the virus pops up again.

Michele is flying from Queensland to stay with my parents and I from this coming Friday to next Wednesday – if the virus does not get out of control! It returned in Brisbane and NSW last week, with limited lockdowns imposed, so things are uncertain until Michele is actually on her way down here.

I have not ridden my bicycle for a few months now; I do not want to go near it at the moment. I also lack the energy to even ride it. My weight is around 41 kg or so, where I want it to be. Of course there are side-effects, but being able to wear smaller-size clothes is worth it.

My relationship with my parents is difficult, with frequent verbal altercations. They are old and almost intolerable to be around at times, and I am really not coping. I seem to spend most of my day with cleaning up and other chores. I barely have any physical or mental energy for my creative work.

Mum’s sore leg or hip (see previous entry) has improved a bit, but she still uses the walking cane now for support.

SuzyM7th February 2021 at 2:25pm

Well into the New Year now. The Coronavirus is still a major focus of media attention, though Victoria has not yet endured another lockdown. I have not felt much like writing.

I was thinking today while out walking that 100 years ago the year was 1921 and my late maternal grandmother would have not long turned 23 (born 4 February 1898). She was the grandparent I was closest to and I think of, and miss her, nearly every day.

Mum has had some health issues: her right leg became sore last week to the point of walking with great difficulty – she had to resort to using a walking stick (the blue one I bought when I was enduring a spate of foot and leg injuries back in 2018: a foot tendon injury, then plantar fasciitis, then a partial tear of my left adductor groin muscle!). She went to Holmsglen Private Hospital to get an MRI scan (to have it done that day, go through the Emergency department, as it turned out), but nothing specific was detected, so she was advised that the hip and leg issue would heal over time. She and her brother (my Uncle) also share the 4 February birthday, and she turned 83. Old age is noticeably debilitating her (my uncle, who is 11 years older, has been in a nursing home since 2019).

I am mentally and physically exhausted, much of this from cleaning up after my parents, and am “running on fumes” by day’s end. I barely have any enthusiasm for creative work, and can only manage tiny portions of this now and then.

I have not ridden my bicycle for a few months; I have lost enthusiasm for it and simply do not want to. Perhaps I will return to bicycling eventually, but all I can barely manage now for exercise is walking around my neighborhood. I am dependent upon Dad for car transport; Mum is unable to drive (as am I) so her new car mostly resides in the garage. It is still useful as a backup car, though. I get very annoyed at anti-car activists who believe car usage should be strongly discouraged; public transport and bicycling are simply not desirable or practical alternatives for every need.

SuzyM27th December 2020 at 3:08pm

A lot of time has passed again since my last entry! Christmas was on Friday, and New Year’s Day is this coming week.

  • I turned 50 in November (Monday 9/11); I received some money as a gift (never unwelcome!).
  • My bicycle accident injuries have mostly healed, but I have almost stopped riding my bike since (it was repaired at 99 Bikes in Bentleigh, where I bought it); I just do not want to, and prefer walking for exercise. I have not been riding for a few weeks now. Mental aftereffects from the accident, perhaps.
  • I got my second and last remaining wisdom tooth extracted on Friday 2/10, after a couple of cancellations due to the COVID shutdowns, done by the same dentist as noted in my 14/7 entry. I had no problems with the healing process. So that is one long-term wish achieved this year, at least!
  • COVID-19 restrictions have mostly been lifted in Victoria, after a very difficult few months of almost no shops open, though facemasks are still to be worn in crowded areas (shops, public transport). Victoria has virtually eliminated community transmission cases for now, but more are popping up in other states, as is perhaps inevitable.
  • On Friday 18th I traded in my iPad 9.2-inch 6th generation for the 10.2-inch 8th generation version at the Southland Apple store. This one has 128 GB of storage (the only other option was 32 GB, same as the Gen6, inadequate for me now). It was $650, but the trade-in was worth $220, so my parents paid essentially the same price for the 32 GB version ($430). It is a rose gold in color. Dad ended up buying himself the 32 GB model (space gray) as his iPad2 is now hopelessly slow and outdated (its operating system can’t be upgraded).
  • Relations with my parents are strained a lot of the time. They are aging and increasingly infirm and cantankerous, and I am not coping well with them at all. I am gradually becoming a carer, a role for which I am untrained and ill-suited, being impatient and obsessive about cleanliness. There has been a lot of acrimonious arguments. Mum is also developing dementia, and she has spent a lot of money on various things – the car she bought earlier this year (23/3 entry) has barely been driven as she is intimidated by all the technology used in its interface.
  • I asked Heather via her Facebook page (I have one, too) the address of the house she and family lived in the early 1990s; she said 8 Matilda Ave, Wantirna South, 3152. I remember riding my bicycle there for Christmas Day in 1990, but surely not – Google Maps measures the distance as around 26 km, taking around 1.5 hours! I can’t believe I would have been able to ride so far (and back home)! I was younger then, though.
  • I was gaining some weight earlier this year due to simple overeating, but have managed to lose this since my second wisdom tooth extraction. I was up to 45 kg and felt bloated and my clothes were a little tight. I did a “reboot” of my diet and am now at 43 or 42 kg. I look much better and my clothes fit again, though there are the usual side-effects (chronic fatigue). Still, “You can never be too rich or too thin,” and I can at least be one of these two!

SuzyM14th July 2020 at 2:53pm

Victorian lockdown #2

To the surprise of few, Victorian Coronavirus lockdown #2 began on Thursday 9/7, for 6 weeks. Stage 3, like last time – and it will destroy many businesses. For my own mental health I am barely glancing at the r/Melbourne and r/Australia Reddit forums as virtually all are in support of the hard lockdown strategy and Premier Andrews. r/LockdownSkepticism is one of my few refuges there; another Australian vented their frustration at the situation in one thread (I am SuzyM at Reddit). I am now wearing a surgical mask when out at places such as Southland SC, as is now recommended.

Wisdom tooth extraction

On Friday 10/7 I had 1 of my 2 remaining wisdom teeth extracted! The one in my upper right jaw. Done at Team Dental Bayside by Dr Aditi Gadre. I am happy to be rid of it – better late than never! The last one (in my upper left jaw) is booked for extraction on 7 August, but that depends on the Coronavirus guidelines (might have to be rescheduled). The extraction went well, took only 20 minutes or so, though now it has to heal up! My two lower wisdom teeth were extracted long ago: lower left in December 1994, and lower right on 2/2/1996, when they grew in and became impacted.

I went back today for a quick follow-up exam as I was concerned I was developing a dry socket; the blood clot felt like it fell out on Saturday and the area around the tooth was tender (though not as agonizingly painful as I have read DS to be described). Dr Aditi had a look but did not see any signs of the condition (though it could still develop). So I will see how I heal in the next week or so.

SuzyM1st July 2020 at 5:11am

Activities and events

There was a very brief report of yesterday’s Southland SC suicide in the Herald-Sun:

Southland: Man dies after falling from balcony at shopping centre

Staff writer, Bayside Leader
June 30, 2020 11:42am

A man has died after falling from a balcony at Southland Shopping Centre.

A large section of Southland, near David Jones, was roped off this morning while police investigate and people are being urged to avoid the area.

A Victoria Police spokeswoman told the Leader the man’s death was not being treated as suspicious.

Police will prepare a report for the coroner.

There is also a r/Melbourne subReddit forum thread. The man was 65 years old according to one commenter.

SuzyM30th June 2020 at 2:40pm

Activities and events

  • There was apparently a suicide in Southland SC today, early this morning before my parents and I arrived there around 9 a.m. According to Dad, (who was told this by the owner of a coffee shop he bought some drinks from), the person jumped from the third level of the center court in the original section, down onto the hard floor below. The 3 levels were cordoned off and police and security guards were there. There is unlikely to be any media report given that reporting suicides is taboo (doing so supposedly encourages others to attempt also). I find this attitude patronizing and irritating myself.

SuzyM22nd June 2020 at 3:44pm

Activities and events

  • Forgot to mention in my previous entry that I went to the city (Melbourne CBD) by train last Wednesday 17/6; I have not been for a couple of months since the COVID-19 lockdown started. The train carriages were notably less crowded.
  • Am annoyed – yet somehow not surprised – that Victorian Premier Daniel Andrews has extended our “State of Emergency” for another month due to a small rise in COVID-19 cases here. It is a convenient distraction from the Labor branch-stacking scandal of last week. As far as I am concerned, the Premier lost any remaining credibility by allowing the “Black Lives Matter” protest crowds to gather in Melbourne despite the obvious risk of transmitting the virus, presumably just because those protesting are left-wing/“progressive” in political view.
  • I have not felt much like writing again for personal reasons. I find myself wishing I could become a recluse or hermit and disengage from the world, but I have no way of supporting myself and am physically and mentally exhausted and unsettled.

SuzyM19th June 2020 at 1:38pm

Activities and events

  • Had a bad week, for reasons I don’t want to go into.
  • Went to the dentist for a checkup and clean last Tuesday 16/6. Have some slight decay on my top right wisdom tooth; the dentist said to watch it for the moment. If it ends up needing a filling, I will get it removed – I also still have my top left wisdom tooth (the lower ones were extracted after they emerged and became impacted; the lower left tooth was removed in December of 1994; the right lower tooth on 2 February 1996).
  • Last Tuesday marked 5 weeks since my bicycle accident. My black eye is almost gone; my forehead hematoma is still tender.

SuzyM22nd June 2020 at 3:58pm

Passing of Strider

Michele and Chris’s Doberman, Strider, passed away on 4/6. He was 11 years old.

SuzyM1st June 2020 at 3:41pm

Disaster literally struck me on Tuesday 12/5, when I was cycling home from Chadstone SC as usual, and was hit by a car at a roundabout! It is my first serious accident.

Accident details:

  • Location: roundabout at the intersection of Marma Road, Henty Street and Murrumbeena Crescent (Google Maps location)
  • Time: around 12:30 p.m.
  • I looked both ways and entered the roundabout. A car appeared on my left and kept coming; it slowed but did not stop and struck my bicycle on the left. I was flung forward and onto my left side, impacting the road surface. The female driver stopped and rendered assistance, phoning for an ambulance and police.
  • An ambulance attended the scene; I was given a medical check. No immediately serious injuries, but I had numerous bruises and grazes on my left arm, hand, side, chin, and a hematoma on my left forehead. I was wearing my helmet as usual; the left foam rim impacted the road and pressed into my forehead, causing bruising and the hematoma.
  • Two police officers from Caulfield Police Station, Senior Constable John Entwisle and Matthew Morris, attended and took details.
  • Driver details: Jane Egan 5 Pledger Cl, Narre Warren. Vehicle registration 1KV1DD blue Mazda 2. Police incident number T20200009254 (for insurance company).
  • I initially declined to visit an Emergency Department via the ambulance (my parents came and took me home in their car) but later that afternoon visited my GP who advised an ED visit, so I went to Sandringham Hospital, transported by my parents, where scans and tests were done. No concussion or fractures detected (I had a CT scan and chest x-ray done).
  • My bicycle was damaged, the most obvious being a bent left pedal shaft, and wheels. On Thursday 21/5 it was taken to its place of purchase, 99 Bikes in Bentleigh, for assessment and repairs. I collected it on Saturday 30/5. It had been repaired and rode OK, but still has cosmetic damage – mainly scratches and the plastic cover for the right handlebar gear shift indicator is missing (perhaps popped off during the accident).

I was a bit naughty and rode to Chadstone SC and back yesterday to test my mettle, along the same route – made it back home unscathed! However I did dismount before crossing that roundabout where I had the accident, looking very carefully for oncoming cars.

I have been too flustered, exhausted and stressed to feel like writing. I am slowly recovering and healing, but I am still processing the event and feel very disorientated and unsettled. One of the worst parts was the sickening realization just before the impact was that I was going to be hit and could do nothing to escape. Also the sensation of falling and hitting the bitumen very hard.

Some photos (via my iPad) of me on the day of my accident, after visiting Sandringham Hospital ED:

My bicycling accident injuries, 12/5/2020 My bicycling accident injuries, 12/5/2020

My poor bicycle (note bent left pedal shaft):

Bicycle damage

Injuries on 14/5:

Injuries, 14/5/2020 Injuries, 14/5/2020

On 15/5:

Injuries, 15/5/2020

Nearly 3 weeks later, I am still a little sore, but not as badly as last week. My grazes have scabbed over, my bruises are less sore and are fading. The most obvious injury was my forehead hematoma – literally golfball-sized and discolored (4 × 3 cm as the GP I saw about it on Monday 25/5, Dr. Lucy Buchanan, measured it – I am seeing her again today) – but from Tuesday 26/5 it reduced dramatically, and is now almost unnoticeable. I also have a black eye below it from subcutaneous blood draining from the bruise. I am having to wear a beanie hat or headband when I go out! As things went, I got off relatively lightly – no fractures, spinal damage or concussion.

I am, however, still sore on my left side of my ribcage where my left arm jammed into the side when I hit the road surface, and the doctors said there might be a fractured rib or two there (which are not always detectable on an x-ray).

On 29/5 – much improved! I saw Dr Buchanan again today and she was surprised by how much the hematoma had receded. (For the record, she measured my current weight at 44 kg and height at 158 cm.)

Injuries, 29/5/2020

Weather today is miserable: wet and windy, with very heavy rainfall as a cold front moves through. Yesterday was sunny, in contrast.

SuzyM3rd May 2020 at 3:59pm

Activities and events

  • The COVID-19 lockdown continues, though some states are slowly allowing more activities. Victorian Premier Dan Andrews, though, is very hardline about easing up, and I have come to loathe him, and will not vote Labor while he is in power. I am really missing visiting my favorite shops, such as Uniqlo.
  • I decided to try merging all my TiddlyWiki Journals into this one; easier to maintain and link between them.
  • Have had a couple of “blow-ups” with my parents; an ongoing tension, mainly over preparing meals. The current lockdown situation is not helping. They would normally have had their week-long holiday at Kyneton Bushland Resort over last week, but people are not allowed to travel during the lockdown and the place is temporarily closed. They rebooked for September, when hopefully most things will be back to normal (though the economy has been devastated).
  • Got my hair trimmed last Wednesday 29/3; some hairdressers are re-opening. A lot of shops are opening at later hours, though, which is annoying when one wants to be in and out early.
  • The weather has been miserably cold and wet, though this is easing up a bit in the next few days.
  • I have not been riding my bicycle much. Today I rode down North Road, then turned north and up Nepean Highway to Bridge Street, where my maternal grandmother’s home used to be (14 Bridge Street) until it was sold and demolished in 1997. I like the area (Brighton, used to be in Elsternwick) for its atmosphere; a nostalgic aura of the early 20th century, when my Gran was young (she was born in 1898).

SuzyM3rd May 2020 at 3:31pm

Lockdown begins

Day one of the ridiculously extreme “lockdown” of Australia due to the Coronavirus pandemic that has infested the world from China since last December. It has killed nearly 15,000 worldwide as of this date, but virtually shutting down entire economies and restricting movements of populations is absurd. I don’t know yet if I will be able to go to stores such as Uniqlo, as most non-essential businesses will have to close, frustratingly. Mum and Dad will not be able to go to the Bentleigh RSL for lunch as they have been doing so every week (usually Wednesday). 2020 has been a literally disastrous year so far for Australia, with the widespread bushfires over summer, then this virus.

Migraine

I had a migraine headache from last night into early this morning, probably brought on by the stress of the virus crisis. I lay down on my bed for around an hour after arising (4 am to 5 am) rather than my usual exercise routine, and the headache had subsided.

Mum’s new car

Mum had to give up her Toyota Starlet (bought in 1998) on 10 February due to a defective airbag safety recall – she only received a letter informing her about the issue a couple of weeks prior. She was compensated around $2000 for it. She decided to buy a new car, a 2020 Mazda-2, for nearly $29,000, collecting it on 10 March – a dark metallic grey-blue color with automatic transmission and power steering (she initially ordered a manual transmission, metallic white in color, but changed to automatic; the first choice would also take longer to ship). Unfortunately she finds all the new technology it has intimidating, so Dad has done most of the driving in it so far (Mum has had a few turns around car parks).

SuzyM27th January 2020 at 4:22pm

Activities and events

  • Saw and heard a kookaburra in King George VI Memorial Reserve during a walk there this morning – have not seen one of those birds before! Heard 2 or 3 others in nearby eucalyptus trees as well.
  • Had my hair trimmed last Tuesday 21st.
  • Australia Day public holiday yesterday, but a substitute Monday holiday today as it was on a Sunday. I don’t take much notice of, or have interest in, such occasions anyway.

Weather

Been relatively mild the last few days, but another hot weather ordeal forecast for the end of this week: 37°C Thursday, 41°C Friday, 36°C Saturday.

SuzyM3rd May 2020 at 3:17pm

Activities and events

  • I went to the doctor (East Bentleigh Medical Group) to have my ears syringed due to a mild wax buildup; this has become fairly regular for a few years (usually done once a year).
  • The bushfires dominate the Australian media headlines and are still an ongoing disaster.

Weather

Very smoky – an acrid stench of bushfire smoke in the air – and hazy; also damp and drizzly. Rain yesterday also. A stark contrast to the hellish 40°C of last week (30/12/2019).

SuzyM3rd May 2020 at 3:16pm

Activities and events

  • Went to Southland SC with parents this morning as usual. Encountered Uncle Brian (with his Glen Eira Council-appointed carer, a lady of 45 years old) there, in Aldi supermarket; he usually comes once a week on a community bus. He is very frail and his speech slurred (he wrecked his car in an accident in Richmond on 11/4/2019). I think he might have sustained some brain damage also.
  • Went on a bicycle ride yet again down along Beach Road; still nice weather (sunny, cool southerly breeze, and Port Phillip Bay a lovely teal). Hot tomorrow, though.

SuzyM1st January 2020 at 3:18pm

SuzyM3rd May 2020 at 3:16pm

Activities and events

  • A quiet day for New Year’s Day. As usual I did not go anywhere last night as I do not have a social life, so I was asleep in bed.
  • Went to Southland SC with Mum and Dad as usual; a little later. Some shops open, others weren’t, annoyingly.
  • Went for my bicycle ride today down and along Beach Road. Port Phillip Bay was a lovely teal blue-green again and the sky clear and sunny, with a light cool breeze. I still find riding tiring after a while, though.

Weather

After last Monday’s hellish furnace, another nice sunny day today, mid-20s. Another hot day due for Friday, though; currently forecast for the mid-30s.

SuzyM31st December 2019 at 3:34pm

Activities and events

  • I went for a bicycle ride on Sunday along Beach Road; the sky was clear, there was a light south-easterly wind and the Bay was a nice teal blue-green. A lot of people out visiting the foreshore. I also went out today, and the cool southerly breeze was again sweet relief after yesterday’s furnace wind (see further below).
  • Last day of 2019. Another year frustratingly wasted for me as I achieved nothing, and feel creatively dead – I can’t seem to get any of my thoughts and images out as art and writing. At least I did not suffer any injuries.

Books read

I have just read and finished the 2009 novel Ark by Stephen Baxter, a long-established British science fiction author. He is an author whom I have read before so I am familiar with his style and work. I found this novel oddly compelling, finishing it within a week!

The plot scenario is somewhat farfetched, where the Earth is almost entirely flooded from subterranean water inundating the planet, with dire consequences for humanity and life generally. A space ark of sorts is launched – its developers managing to figure out how to create a functional FTL Alcubierre warp drive using antimatter – and Baxter’s trademark dysfunctional crew characters head off to a potential habitable exoplanet in the 82 Eridani system, 20 light years away (9 years’ travel with the superluminal warp drive). Not surprisingly, plans go awry, though the ending does provide some hope for the characters.

I do seem to like such stories involving dysfunctional characters within a confined space (perhaps because in reality I am in a somewhat similar situation? Namely semi-reclusive in my bedroom, living with my parents). Many years ago I read another of his novels, Titan, perhaps one of the most depressing novels ever and one that was oddly prescient in envisioning near-future world events (the destruction of a space shuttle, the rise of China as a superpower and decline of the USA – the latter under a religious fundamentalist president).

Weather

The Gates of Hell opened again yesterday, with Melbourne’s temperature reaching 40.8°C with gale-force northerly winds. The sky was hazy at times from bushfire smoke. I did not go out anywhere for exercise; just too hot and I had no energy. A cool change came through around 7:30 p.m., and today in contrast is cool with morning rain and just 21°C.

SuzyM26th December 2019 at 8:15am

Activities and events

Christmas Day was quiet for me, as usual; spent at home with parents. I received some money and a gold chain necklace. I went for a bicycle ride along Beach Road. Port Phillip Bay was a nice teal blue-green again, but there was some smoke haze in the sky. A lot of people visiting the beach, as one might imagine.

Weather

Warm yesterday. Another unpleasant blast of extreme heat is due this coming weekend, with 41°C forecast for Monday.

SuzyM5th April 2021 at 4:57am

Activities and events

  • Went for a bicycle ride yesterday along Beach Road; in contrast to Wednesday and Friday it was quite pleasant, with a clear sky and fresh southerly wind. Port Phillip Bay was a bright teal blue-green.
  • I rode to Chadstone SC on Friday (Hell Day!); it was hot but I returned home (around 12:30-ish) before the heat really got bad.
  • Saturday I took the train into the City; blessedly cooler.
  • Went to Southland SC this morning (by car with parents) as usual; very busy as one might imagine. Constantly dodging other people swarming about is tiring and stressful.
  • I feel mentally dull as usual; I seem to feel more enthusiastic in the early morning and make vague plans for creative work I want to do, but this urge has evaporated later in the day, when I am too tired from various chores.

Film events

  • The new Star Wars movie, The Rise of Skywalker, was released last week to ridiculous hype. I have little interest in the Disney sequels and will not see it in cinema (I have not been to the cinema since I saw Transcendence in May 2014). Tickets are too expensive now, anyway.
  • Last week – 17/12 – also marked 10 years since James Cameron’s Avatar was released! The sequel is not due until 2021, unfortunately. I still have all the merchandise I bought then (mainly books and a lot of digital files), but I am struggling to keep up my interest.

Weather

Cooler – mid-20s – and much nicer. Warm for Christmas Day – 28°C or so – but hotter predicted towards end of week, high 30s. Sky hazy from bushfire smoke again today.

SuzyM21st December 2019 at 8:09am

Weather

Melbourne reached 43.5°C yesterday; like being in a furnace. At least it was a dry heat. High-altitude smoke from bushfires in NSW also covered the sky. As I do not have air conditioning in my bedroom, I was barely functioning by late afternoon when my parents’ old weatherboard house began heating up. A cool change blew through after midnight, and outside is blessedly cooler now, low 20s.

SuzyM19th December 2019 at 5:50pm

Dream

Dreamed yesterday evening: I am at home. I walk away and decide to keep walking without returning or telling my parents. I go east, away from Bentleigh and up Centre Road. A few years seem to pass. I return and see Michele outside Bentleigh Woolworths. She tells me Dad has moved to Glenvale and Mum is in some mental health care facility. I awaken at 8:45 pm feeling unsettled.

Weather

A brief respite from the heat today – mid-20s – but tomorrow is forecast to reach 44°C in Melbourne before a late evening cool change, and back to the 20s on Saturday.

SuzyM18th December 2019 at 5:49pm

Activities and events

  • Dad was feeling nauseous this morning; threw up a few times – a mild stomach bug, perhaps. He seems OK now, later in the day.
  • I had a headache overnight and felt off also.
  • Went for a bicycle ride down to Beach Road despite the heat; the atmosphere is oddly hazy and the heat dry so it was reasonably bearable.
  • I received an Apple Pencil for Christmas! I actually asked for the Logitech Crayon first and it was bought, but I did not realize it does not have pressure sensitivity, so I was able to exchange it today at the Southland Apple store for the Apple Pencil 1st generation ($25 more, so not too much a difference in price). If one does digital art, pressure sensitivity is essential! I tried it in a free (but ad-supported) art app called Medibang Paint and the sensitivity works fine.

Weather

Very hot around Australia; 39°C forecast for today in Melbourne and 41°C on Friday. Tomorrow is 23°C and Saturday onward is also back to the 20s, thankfully. What one might describe as “bipolar weather”! Like many I find it difficult to function in such extreme heat (I don’t have air conditioning – too expensive to run).

SuzyM10th December 2019 at 3:57pm

Dreams

  • Dreamed night of 8/12: I am on a passenger jet. We are on the ground, taxiing to take off. Jet moves at a brisk pace along some back roads. However the pilot now seems lost; a car comes toward us and has to pull over to let us pass; then a big group of schoolgirls holding banners, out for their school sports day. The road is now in a park or forest, surrounded by a wall.
  • Last night: of being in and around houses, located at the 90° bend at Rowans Road, Cheltenham (37°56'57.7"S 145°03'03.1"E, according to Google Maps). Also of being in the south-east housing estates at night. A memory of where my cousin Heather and her family lived for a few years in the late 1980s to early 1990s – I rode my road bicycle of then to their house there in 1990 (see 25/4 entry), but I can’t recall their exact address.

Weather

Hot yesterday, up to 38°C, before a southerly cool change in the late evening; one of the best sensations in the world to feel that cool wind.

SuzyM8th December 2019 at 4:04pm

Activities and events

  • Another period of silence as I have not felt like writing.
  • Got my hair trimmed last Wednesday; just a little removed off the ends this time to tidy them up.
  • Saw a rainbow halo around the Sun yesterday, due to ice crystals in high-altitude cirrus clouds.
  • Went for a bicycle ride today, though I was very tired. Port Philip Bay was a lovely cerulean blue. A lot of sailing boats out on it. I also rode to Chadstone SC on Wednesday, Friday and yesterday.
  • Took the Frankston line train to the city (Melbourne CBD) on Thursday; I also did this the previous week.
  • I sighted a grey-and-white cat outside my bedroom window today (south side of my parents’ home; very neglected and overgrown). It has longish fur (grey with white paws and neck ring) and beautiful pale green eyes. I have seen it a few times over the years. It is quite shy (runs if it sights a person) but was wearing a collar with a bell so it obviously belongs to someone in the neighborhood.

Weather

Fairly mild over the last week, but another hot spike again tomorrow; predicted to reach 38°C before a late and hoped-for cool change.

SuzyM27th November 2019 at 5:51pm

Activities and events

Rode my bicycle to Chadstone SC today. I have been lacking what energy I have (not much) so am finding it difficult to function.

Blackbird memory

I just heard a male blackbird singing this early evening, perched on top of an adjacent roof. (They are not native birds to Australia – are an introduced species.) They have a particularly melodious song, and hearing it invokes a wistful childhood memory of lying in my parents’ bed one morning hearing a blackbird sing outside in the front yard. It was very early in the morning and seemed an enchanted, mysterious time.

Weather

Mercifully, much milder compared to Thursday last week (see 23/11/2019 entry); in the mid-20s.

SuzyM23rd November 2019 at 5:39pm

Activities and events

  • I had a stomach migraine this morning – I have not had one of that type in a few years (last one recorded was on Monday 15/9/2014). I felt nauseous for a while, then had an urge to vomit (only saliva as I had not eaten since the previous evening), then I felt better; though this happened twice within half-an-hour. As well as “normal” (headache) migraines, I have also had one retinal migraine so far, on Thursday 17/1/2019. The retinal migraine was quite disconcerting as I lost my vision for around 30 minutes or so; it was obscured by a sparkly jagged hollowed-out circle wherever I looked. (Researching this online showed that exact image.)
  • Rode my bicycle to Chadstone SC and back.

Weather

On Thursday it felt like the gates of Hell opened briefly to blast Victoria with gale-force hot winds and temperatures – Melbourne reached 39°C or so. Dust was blown into the atmosphere and covered much of the state. A cool change came in the late afternoon and temperatures were blessedly cooler the next day.

SuzyM20th November 2019 at 3:51pm

Activities and events

  • The digital TV (HiSense 24P2) that Dad bought me back on 4/4 unexpectedly stopped working yesterday; the standby light was showing but it did not power on. It has a 3-year warranty, so Dad called a number on its warranty and a new TV will be delivered within a few days – it is not worth trying to repair the malfunctioning one; unfortunately the norm with products now.
  • I mentioned my Halo game interest in that entry; however, that has completely vanished now and I have taken most of the associated merchandise to local charity shops. My interest in the world surrounding the game had been fading in the last few years as it was changed from the original 3 games, and I disliked the direction in which it was going. I have no interest in any game worlds now.
  • Rode my bicycle to Chadstone SC and back yesterday and today, so I am rather tired.

Weather

Up to low 30s today, and 39°C forecast for tomorrow, so really heating up now.

SuzyM7th February 2021 at 1:50pm

Activities and events

  • I saw the dentist (Dr Lakshmi Gade) today – thankfully, she found no cavities. The pain seems to be my usual issue with jaw and bite dysfunction, which I have had trouble with for years. Orthodontic correction is the treatment offered, but there is no way I can afford the thousands of dollars required, and even if I could, I don’t think I would want to endure the discomfort of months or years of wearing braces. So I will just put up with it as usual; the aching has abated somewhat anyway. I am more concerned with preventing more cavities. My teeth also need a scale and polish (this was last done in March 2018) but that can wait for a while longer.
  • I rode my bicycle to Chadstone SC and back.

Weather

For the last two days there has been a strong and cool westerly wind (fairly strong on Tuesday) and a little rain.

SuzyM7th February 2021 at 1:49pm

Activities and events

  • For my birthday I received some money, which is always useful! Unfortunately some will have to go to my dreaded dentist visit (9:45 a.m. on Wednesday).
  • I ordered the children’s book I mentioned in my 17/10/2019 entry – Tubby and the Lantern; I had to order a second-hand copy. It will be a few weeks until it arrives, though (via a bookstore in the USA selling through Abebooks). With currency conversion and postage, it cost me nearly $15 – and this was one of the cheapest options! It will not be in very good condition, but as it is not in print I have no other choice. The other children’s book I mentioned in my 3/4/2019 entry, The Gismo from Outer Space, also arrived not too long after ordering it; it is the book I remember.
  • I finished “Proximal Flame’s” The Last Angel (30/8/2019 entry), and it has been a good read, despite having FTL and other sci-fi “magic” tropes. Humanity has been subjugated and almost made extinct by the Compact, an organization of various alien species (some willingly joined, others not) – a concept similar to the Covenant in the Halo video games. Some Artificial Intelligences created by humans and uploaded into starships have survived, and these encounter the human main characters, who overcome their alien brainwashing upon learning of the atrocities the Compact visited upon humanity thousands of years ago, and a resistance begins. I will start the sequel – The Last Angel: Ascension – next.

Weather

Warm (nearly 30°C) and windy today (north wind), but a cool change and rain due tomorrow.

SuzyM7th February 2021 at 1:50pm

Activities and events

I turn 49 today and I have toothache :-(. I’ve had it for the last week or so – the lower left second molar (which had a filling placed on 28/5/2013). Made a dentist appointment for next Wednesday with Team Dental Bayside at Southland SC. The dentist I saw last time in March 2018 was fully booked for over a month, so I am seeing another whom I don’t know. As usual I am dreading the prospect – the filling might need redoing, but even worse is the anticipated cost; it is not something I can easily afford (nor can my parents). If I need a root canal (and crown) I will simply not be able to; that would cost several times my entire savings, so I would have to reluctantly get the tooth extracted instead. So I am not having a happy birthday.

Weather

Cool with some rain and a strong westerly wind.

SuzyM1st November 2019 at 5:51pm

Activities and events

  • Rode my bicycle to Chadstone SC again; achieved what I wanted.
  • Decided to revert to the previous version of my website (creative work not in a subfolder). I am uncertain how to organize it.

Weather

Hot (mid-30s) with a strong northerly wind. Cooler change due late tonight. I hate living in an old weatherboard house with poor insulation; it gets very hot or cold, reflecting conditions outside.

SuzyM31st October 2019 at 6:46pm

Activities and events

  • Rode my bicycle to Chadstone SC yesterday and today.
  • Halloween tonight (tomorrow in the USA). The event is, of course, a big festival day in the USA, and is increasingly growing in Australia, also (to the disgruntlement of some). I am not doing anything (no surprises there) so am indifferent, but if other people in Australia want to participate it does not bother me.
  • I rearranged some of my website so that all the creative work pages are in a subfolder.

Dreams

Dreamed last night (30/10): I am on horseback, riding through a pine tree forest with a group. I urge my horse into a gallop to get away from them.

In the next scene, I am initially in a toilet cubicle, then I seek to escape by climbing outside through a window; I am in the second storey of a building. I am now the U.S. President (not the current real-world one!) and have decided to play truant. When I climb out I am now in an indoor waiting room lobby; a mustachioed man looks up at me in surprise (he has reddish hair and is an anonymous Dream Character). I press a conspiratorial finger against my lips. I drop to the ground but look up to see that a pair of my underpants has been caught on a protrusion. I jump to try to retrieve them, but can’t reach up high enough. Others waiting in the room try to help me. I then wake up.

Weather

Hot again today, and tomorrow into the mid-30s. Very windy also, a strong north wind as is usual with this weather (it brings heat southwards from the central deserts of the continent) – but a cool change is due late tomorrow.

SuzyM28th October 2019 at 3:16pm

Activities and events

Went out for bicycle rides on Thursday (a very warm day, low 30s ); Saturday (very windy) and today (much pleasanter). The Bay was a nice bright teal blue today; Saturday there were gale-force westerly winds so the Bay was blue-grey and very rough, and my ride then was difficult.

Weather

Hot Thursday, as I noted, and heating up again later this week – into the low to mid-30s on Friday.

SuzyM24th October 2019 at 4:15pm

Activities and events

Went for my bicycle ride along Beach Road. Port Phillip Bay was a lovely bright teal blue, a little choppy. The sky was clear azure.

Dreams

A dream from last Saturday (19/10): I am in the backyard with Dad. We look up in the sky to see an F-16 jet tumbling around in an aerial display. Earlier in the dream, I go out in the backyard before sunrise and see 3 rainbows in the dark cloudy sky, lit by the rising sun.

Aspergers obsessions

A post in the r/Aspergers forum asks: Anyone else feel intense boredom when they're not fixating on a special interest? I can emphatically relate to that! If I do not have an interest/obsession to fixate on, I feel unfocused, restless, unhappy. I have endured several periods in my life where an obsession has ended, and the transition period is quite psychologically unpleasant. My interests also serve as a creative outlet. I can define my life by the interests I have had. Some are long-term and permanent though, examples being spaceflight, space generally and some historical eras such as Samurai/Japan, ancient China and Mesoamerica.

Shakespeare too hard?

An article from today’s Herald-Sun about a survey finding that many students do not see Shakespeare’s plays as relevant:

Why schoolkids are rejecting Shakespeare

Charles Miranda, News Corp Australia Network
October 23, 2019 8:00am

To be or not to be – that is the question school teachers may well be asking themselves after a poll found students did not consider learning Shakespeare’s work relevant to today’s society or helpful to get a job.

And almost all respondents said the Bard’s language was too difficult to understand and his works should be contemporised.

But federal Education Minister Dan Tehan said Aussie school kids should not be expecting his “timeless” works to be dropped from the syllabus any time soon.

He may be considered the world’s greatest dramatist and writer of the English language but a survey in his birth nation Britain found more than two fifths of students did not see how studying Shakespeare or his works would help them get a job when they left school.

The survey, commissioned by the Royal Shakespeare Company (RSC) and digital technology company Adobe, found 29 per cent of respondents said they might learn more if his plays were set to modern day, one in five believed video and animation would help them understand scenes better and 77 per cent found his language simply too challenging to follow.

More than 40 per cent of those 2000 11 to 18-year-old students surveyed concluded studying Shakespeare would not help them get a job when they left school.

Commenting on the British education poll, Australia’s Education Minister said the Bard’s work was very much relevant.

“Every student should study Shakespeare,” Mr Tehan told News Corp yesterday.

“He is one of the most influential writers in English literature and his plays address timeless themes that are still relevant today. Our Government believes that strong literacy skills are an essential element of an education and learning Shakespeare will strengthen those skills.”

The debate about including Shakespeare in the HSC or exam syllabuses arises from time to time with some in the Australian education system believing it was no longer relevant.

The survey was commissioned to mark a new digital art series which reimagines Shakespeare’s best-loved and most studied scenes and characters.

RSC director of education Jacqui O’Hanlon said regardless of the finding, he was studied around the world including by two million students in the UK.

“We know from our extensive research that having access to arts and cultural learning improves empathy, critical and creative thinking in young people as well as developing their social and communication skills,” she said.

“All these qualities and attributes are essential for helping prepare young people to take their place in the world.”

She said however a new partnership with Adobe on the new digital art series reimagined Shakespeare’s best-loved and most studied scenes and characters and they would continue to look at ways to bring his best loved texts to life for contemporary audiences.

A rather dismaying finding, but not surprising, given the declining state of education and subsequent dumbing-down of the curriculum – at least, in Western countries (USA, Britain, Australia). I did study some of the plays when I was in school; my favorite was Macbeth due to all its violence and action :-). My favorite director, Akira Kurosawa, based two of his films on Shakespeare plays: Throne of Blood (Macbeth) and Ran (King Lear). The language is challenging but lovely; it makes one’s brain work! Students should be challenged when learning, not pandered to. That is a reason I detest much of Young Adult and children’s fiction produced now: it is simplistic and dumb.

Weather

Hot today, around 34°C, with a strong northerly wind – the first hot day for the season this year in Melbourne.

SuzyM5th April 2021 at 4:59am

Activities and events

  • I had one of my mild migraine headaches early this morning, so I lay on my bed rather than do my usual half-hour of low-impact aerobics video. I felt better later on so I did that exercise then.
  • I went for a walk around King George VI Memorial Reserve rather than go on a bicycle ride – it is a local park around 10 minutes’ walk away.
  • I have ridden to Chadstone SC around 4 times last week on my bicycle! I only spend a short time there, so I do different shopping tasks each time. Probably will only go once this week, maybe.

Junk food movies

Renowned director Martin Scorsese recently spoke out against the overwhelming dominance of Marvel superhero movies in an interview with Empire magazine (November issue).

“I don’t see them. I tried, you know? But that’s not cinema,” Scorsese told Empire magazine. “Honestly, the closest I can think of them, as well made as they are, with actors doing the best they can under the circumstances, is theme parks. It isn’t the cinema of human beings trying to convey emotional, psychological experiences to another human being.”

Not surprisingly, his view has come under heavy criticism from some in the movie industry, not to mention rabid superhero fans. But I adamantly agree with him – the glut of comicbook movies dominating the cinema now (most made by the Disney behemoth) are the cinematic equivalent of junk food: entertaining but ultimately empty and bad for one’s intelligence. They are childish wish fulfillment. Their massive success is a sad indictment of the immaturity of current society.

I made similar comments in my 10/5/2019 entry.

Weather

Warming up; 33°C forecast for Thursday.

SuzyM24th October 2019 at 4:05pm

Activities and events

I went by train to the city today; nothing of interest to note.

Paper lanterns 🏮

An obscure long-term liking of mine are paper lanterns – the traditional Chinese and Japanese ones. I have a vague memory of reading a children’s book when young that featured such lanterns. Googling brought me to a book called Tubby and the Lantern by Al Perkins – looking at it invoked some familiar nostalgic feelings, so perhaps that was the book, as it was published in 1971? Sadly, it seems to be out of print and no scans are available online.

Weather

Cooler inclement weather today with rain :-(.

SuzyM14th October 2019 at 6:01pm

Activities and events

  • Michele departed for Tullamarine Airport today via the Skybus.
  • I went for my bicycle ride; Port Phillip Bay was a nice bright blue-green, the water a little ruffled from a northwesterly wind.
  • I had a mild headache this morning, so I felt off; it might have been a pressure headache also due to the slightly humid weather and an incipient change.
  • The toilet was backing up again! Dad managed to plunge it clear, for now. Having only one toilet in the household is annoying! My home for all my life so far is a small, old (1940s-built) 3-bedroom weatherboard (originally 2 bedrooms, but the family who lived here before us added one more on). It is poorly insulated so is hot in summer and freezing in winter. Living here is of course preferable to being homeless, but I wish we could afford to upgrade to a modern home! I always envied the American homes displayed in their movies and TV shows – these seemed amazingly large and luxurious.

Photos

Below: Dad, Mum and Michele in the backyard, 14/10:

Dad, Mum and Michele, 14/10/2019

Selfie, me, 12/10:

Suzy, 12/10/2019

Weather

Rather warm and a little humid today; unsettled. Not really cold or hot.

SuzyM11th October 2019 at 4:17pm

Activities and events

  • Michele arrived early this afternoon, taking the airport bus from Tullamarine Airport to Melbourne CBD, then the Frankston line train to Patterson Station (arrived around 12:30). She and my parents went to Bentleigh RSL for a hot lunch. Like me, she has had her hair cut shorter (shoulder-length) – easier to manage. In color it is that curious shade that is either dark blond or light brown – a difficult color to describe, and a lot of people of English descent have it. As she lives in Queensland with her family (husband and adult children), I only see her very occasionally, sadly! I have almost forgotten what it is like to have a sister :-(.
  • I went out for a bicycle ride along my Beach Road route. Port Phillip Bay was calm and blue. Wind was light but a south-easterly, which I dislike as it is against me on the way home.

SuzyM10th October 2019 at 6:15pm

Activities and events

  • Michele is flying down from Queensland tomorrow to stay here (home) until Monday; she wants to visit a friend (Jan – a former Kilvington classmate).
  • I rode to Chadstone SC yesterday but saw nothing of interest. Rode my Beach Road route today; Port Phillip Bay was a steel blue-grey in color. One curious thing I like to admire while riding are the various metallic paint colors of cars – there are some attractive colors on some! I love metallic and iridescent effects generally, so my attention is captured by any objects or creatures featuring these.

SuzyM6th October 2019 at 6:39pm

Activities and events

  • Daylight Savings began today, so I have been feeling rather jetlagged and even more fatigued than usual. I walked to Bentleigh SC and back in the morning (around 20 minutes or so each way). I did not go on a bicycle ride; too tired.
  • I have not had my periods since September 2015 (22/9/2015 is the date I recorded) due to my low weight, though I am close to menopause age too. It is obviously not good for my health, but I hate them so much that I don’t care.

Weather

Very mild – a warm night, nearly 20°C – and unsettled.

SuzyM6th October 2019 at 5:24am

Activities and events

  • Just going through the usual routine of my limited life. Went on my bicycle ride today up Tucker Road > down North Road > along Beach Road > back up Dendy Street then Patterson Road. As today was sunny, Port Phillip Bay was a nice blue, the water just a little ruffled. I like to get a glimpse of the sea, viewing all the different colors and textures the surface displays.
  • With help from the TiddlyWiki Google Groups forum where I made a post, I was able to find a filter expression to export this and my other TiddlyWikis to their single static HTML pages with the entries in a particular order. This is the expression that eventuated: [!is[system]] -[tags[]is[system]tagging[]] +[sort[title]] [[Suzy's Journal 2019]] +[putfirst[]] [tags[]!is[system]sort[title]] [[contents]] – translated: exclude some pages tagged with $:/tags/, then sort other tiddlers by title, but put the Home page at the top (Program tips in this case), then follow this with tags contents pages, then the contents page (which lists all tags with their contents – a sort of meta page or site map) last (at the bottom of the single page).

SuzyM2nd October 2019 at 3:39pm

Dreams

I am in the backyard of my parents’ home (where I live). I see dark clouds in the east and realise a storm is coming. I race to take down the washing hanging on the clothesline; I feel slow and sluggish. I only just make it inside before the rain front hits, but then see the front door is open and water is flooding through the house, including my bedroom, where water streams from the ceiling.

Having water in the house – and, in particular, leaking copiously through the ceiling of my bedroom – seems to be a recurring scene, though such flooding has never yet happened in real life. I am dubious as to whether dreams have any meaning – I am more inclined to think they are random processing of images by one’s brain while asleep – but this imagery could perhaps symbolize some sort of insecurity? I do have a fear of becoming homeless (not unfounded), so the flooding of my bedroom – my refuge from the world – symbolizes the tenuousness of my real-life situation.

Weather

It is warming up – into the mid-20s this week – so spring is arriving! The pink plum blossom on street trees finished a few weeks ago, and the white Chinese pear blossom has recently finished, replaced by green leaves.

SuzyM24th October 2019 at 4:05pm

Activities and events

I went to the City (Melbourne CBD) by train this morning, as I sometimes do, for a couple of hours, mainly to browse through Uniqlo and some bookstores. A lot of people wearing yellow and black – AFL Grand Final between Richmond Tigers (the team I follow, if asked) and Greater Western Sydney Giants; happily, Richmond won by a large margin. The Frankston train line which I take goes past the Richmond home stadium and MCG. (I am not really into organized sport as such, though, and am annoyed that the AFL organization pays no taxes. I would rather see that money go toward the arts and vital public services such as hospitals.)

Books read

I finished Children of Ruin by Adrian Tchaikovsky, following on from Children of Time (25/9 entry), not with spiders (though a couple of spider characters from the first novel were featured) but with uplifted octopuses (which are also cute). Not quite as riveting as the first book, and I was a bit disappointed to read that what appeared to be an Alcubierre warp drive is invented by the octopuses at the very end of the novel:

The science faction are going to test the Noah device, now repaired and improved. That they feel the need to take it outside the orbit of either Damascus or Nod in order to deploy it is unsettling, but Helena and Portia want to see, finding themselves in quarters very like their previous incarceration on the rescue mission.
The device itself is surprisingly small, an overarching framework fit around a single, unmanned sphere-ship, far enough out that Helena must take it on faith and instrumentation that it is there at all.
She doesn’t understand the full science behind the thing, only what it is supposed to do. She doesn’t really believe that, either. The octopuses are erratic engineers, after all, plagued by factionalism and short attention spans. It’s all impossible, isn’t it? And true, Old Empire humans conceived of such a loophole in the universe, but even for them the energy requirements were ludicrously out of reach. Generations of octopus scientists have been tantalized by the thought, though, and have desired to make it real, subconsciously telling their Reaches, Find a way, cheating physics, paring away at the problem until … this. And still she does not believe it, and her scepticism is tiny compared to Portia’s. […]
When they test Noah’s device, it vanishes instantly. The octopus scientists are split, some hailing this as a success, some as a failure. Their instruments are ambivalent as to what happened because their instruments cannot yet test the principles that they are deploying, a common problem given the leap-of-inspiration nature of cephalopod science.
A year later, however, the signal will reach them from a light year out in the void. The device arrived successfully, having manipulated the expansion rates of the space immediately before and behind it to travel the distance in a matter of subjective hours. No return trip had been planned, however, and the actual signal will be forced to travel the old-fashioned way, under the stern eye of a relativity that does not even realize it has been tricked.

This is what I find dismaying about other sci-fi book series I have read, such as the Coyote Universe series by Allen Steele, and some of The Expanse TV series and novels: they begin with reasonably realistic physics, but sooner or later introduce Faster-Than-Light technology and travel, which means the stories instantly become science fantasy (as I noted in my 30/3 entry). In my view now, introducing FTL is “cheating.”

SuzyM24th October 2019 at 4:05pm

Dreams

A dream from yesterday evening: I am trying to cross South Rd with Michele (from center divider to south side). Traffic is heavy, and Michele nearly gets run over by a large delivery truck.

Books read

I read Children of Time by Adrian Tchaikovsky, the first in a science fiction series (the second, Children of Ruin, was released this year). I generally enjoyed it, and it had a lot of interesting ideas (as sci-fi should). An Earthlike world 20 light-years from Earth is terraformed by a human-built starship in preparation for later colonization, as are many others. It is to be “seeded” with a nanovirus that will evolve (“uplift”) the lifeforms transported there from Earth into sapient beings intended as aides for the future colonists. However, ecological terrorists sabotage and destroy the starship, though not before the virus is released along with some Earth lifeforms. The intended monkeys are destroyed in their capsule upon descent, but spiders instead are infected with the virus, and develop sapience over generations. Another starship with colonists arrives two thousand years later, after the Earth has been rendered uninhabitable by war. The colonists must then interact with the resident spiders.

I was quite pleased to see that no “magic” faster-than-light travel was employed; instead the science is kept reasonably realistic, if advanced: extended hibernation for the human colonists, ark ships, genetic engineering via a specially-created virus. The timescale is thus necessarily very long, but that is unavoidable when using realistic physics.

I also liked the spiders, despite being a bit arachnophobic! I could even come to like real spiders (my favorites are the cute and colorful Peacock Spiders, extensively photographed by Jurgen Otto). The fictional ones were depicted quite well, being relatable despite having alien psychologies.

SuzyM24th September 2019 at 4:03pm

Activities and events

Rode my bicycle to Chadstone SC, which I usually do at least once a week now (weather depending). Riding a bicycle gives me a little freedom at least.

Dreams

A dream of last night: I was to be put into hibernation for a space voyage. I had to go buy my own sarcophagus from a newsagent! It was a colourful painted coffin, a lightweight one that I could carry. The dream character tried to sedate me after inserting an IV tube, but I became distressed upon feeling how cold I would become – using liquid nitrogen to chill me – and jumped up and ran from the table.

I had watched some of a Four Corners documentary about the funeral industry the previous night, so this is probably where the coffin imagery came from. The sedation is likely another memory of my being given general anesthesia before my two surgeries in 2008 and 2009.

In an earlier dream I was searching for some old school classmates, I think? Walking around my neighborhood. I did not write the details down, so I can’t recall it very well, only a feeling of yearning.

SuzyM23rd September 2019 at 4:22pm

Activities and events

  • A lot going through my head to want to write about, but as usual I cannot settle down to put it into reality. I am too physically and mentally exhausted from my various chores (or tasks, to use a more positive word). The annoying issue is that I seem to get an energy surge late at night with positive thoughts of what I would like to do the next day, creatively – but of course I need to try to sleep then. (Friday night I did not manage to sleep at all – I could not turn my brain off for various reasons.)
  • I decided to remove the 2015 and 2016 Journal entries and go back to one year for each TiddlyWiki, which works better. Spent Sunday afternoon doing this (downloaded a new empty TiddlyWiki for each, exported selected entries from here and imported them into each one.) I also found out how to export a static HTML file with tiddlers in the order I want them – for this blog, the filter syntax in the Advanced search box (in the interactive TW) is [title[Suzy's Journal 2019]][tag[2019]][tags[]!is[system]sort[title]]. Which is rendered as the Home page at the top, followed by all blog entries in order, then all tags beneath these, on the one long page. Not perfect, but a bit better than before. So I accomplished one task, minor as it was!

SuzyM24th October 2019 at 4:05pm

Activities and events

  • Parents decided to return home today from Kyneton, a couple of days early.
  • I rode my bicycle to Chadstone SC and back. Very tired as usual.

Weather

Fine and sunny after a chilly morning (single-digit figures).

Subway art book

An ABC News article featured a graffiti photographer, Martha Cooper, who has documented street art for decades. They mentioned her 1984 book, Subway Art – and looking at the photo of it, I recalled that I’d read that book at school! I was to do some sort of art project about graffiti in 1987 or 1988 – I vaguely remember photographing a few pieces that Dad pointed out in the city – and the book served as a reference, and I also simply liked to look at it.

My nervous breakdown and mental health issues, though, sabotaged that project (and my last year at Kilvington, where I never graduated from Year 12). I do remember that the art teacher was able to give me the book before I left. Alas, I did not keep it – I don’t know what happened to it. Fortunately after a short online search I found a copy to download.

SuzyM24th October 2019 at 4:05pm

Activities and events

  • Had my hair trimmed today at Hair World in Southland SC. The woman cut off a bit more than I intended – it is now a little above shoulder-length – but it will grow again. I can still (barely!) braid it. I have lost a lot of hair in the last 3 or 4 years due to weight loss and it is now quite thin and brittle. It is, however, easier and quicker to wash, at least.
  • Today I walked to Southland and back, about 45 minutes each way, so I am quite fatigued. On Friday I walked to Southland and took the bus to Chadstone SC and back. By the afternoon I am too mentally and physically tired to do anything much.
  • The landline phone in the loungeroom is malfunctioning a bit – a lot of static and noise – and the extension in my parents’ bedroom is a little noisy, so Mum and Dad have had some trouble ringing me each night. Dad has managed to email me, at least. The main thing I don’t like about them being absent is lack of access to car transport, as I can’t drive, so I have to either use bus or train (for which I need to pay fares) or bicycle and walking (both get tiring and are unpleasant in inclement weather). The main thing I do like when they are absent is not having to clean and tidy up after them every day.
  • I returned that horse book I mentioned in my 13/7/2019 entry; it is big and heavy and, to be honest, I had not looked at it since I bought it. Impulse buying again – bad habit of mine. I also don’t have the room to store a lot of books, and the heavy “coffee-table” type of books are a waste of space.

Weather

Yesterday rain came in the afternoon after an unsettled windy day and there was a lot of rain overnight; fortunately it cleared by early morning. It will be fine the next couple of days.

SuzyM12th September 2019 at 5:45pm

Activities and events

  • Mum and Dad left today for their second holiday of the year at Kyneton Bushland resort. They will spend a week there as usual, weather permitting.
  • I have been going through my usual routines; nothing of interest.

SuzyM24th October 2019 at 4:05pm

Activities and events

Have not felt much like writing – I’ve had a lot of thoughts going through my head as usual, but lack the impetuous to write them down. I seem to have most energy in the morning, but this wanes by day’s end. My time is mostly spent doing chores, exercising and passively browsing the Internet. My imaginary life has become very muted – it has occurred to me that this is how a lot of people function, focused outwardly on daily life and chores, rather than internally.

Books read

  • One fiction creation I am reading is The Last Angel, by “Proximal Flame,” posted on an Internet forum (summarized at the TV Tropes website). It is a decent read, though needs some editing if it were to be published. It is a lot better than many published novels, though.
  • I have read a couple of Zen-related books: Hardcore Zen by Brad Warner and Eat Sleep Sit: My Year at Japan’s Most Rigorous Zen Temple by Kaoru Nonomura. I am more interested in the details of training rather than the philosophy, though Brad’s book had a lot of “well, that makes sense!” impressions from me; it is a “no bullshit” approach to the philosophy (like me, he is wary of mysticism, which is too often used to entice and con those interested, usually parting them from their money). I do find philosophy, theology and mythology generally boring – in a similar way, I am more interested in the details of the training of activities such as ballet or gymnastics, rather than the result or output.

SuzyM3rd August 2019 at 6:41pm

Activities and events

  • The modem for the National Broadband Network connection was delivered this week; the technician to install and connect it came today. Dad will try plugging it in later to replace the old ADSL; how it goes is uncertain as the network rollout has been trouble-plagued.
  • Later: We connected to the outside Internet OK! My iPad connected with no issues. Had some trouble getting a wireless dongle to work with my desktop PC – it did not detect one Dad gave me, and would not connect with the second he had, but turned out all I had to do was restart the PC and it has picked up the Internet OK. So all is well – for now.

SuzyM29th July 2019 at 4:21pm

Activities and events

  • This week, the local magpies have begun to carol in the early morning (around 3 a.m. or so), which means that spring is not far away and their mating and nesting season has started.
  • I have not been doing much aside from my usual routines; by the time afternoon comes around I am too tired to function fully; even writing seems too much mental effort.
  • Got my hair trimmed on Wednesday 17/7; it is quite short – just to my shoulders. Easier to manage. I have lost most of it in the last 2 or 3 years due to weight loss, so it is now very fine and brittle.
  • I lost a key for my Hiplok bicycle lock two weeks ago – fell out somewhere on one of my rides and I could not locate it – so ordered another. I contacted the company via Facebook message, and they were kind enough to send me a replacement key, which arrived today! (I found they would do this by Googling the company and someone mentioned they had received a replacement key after contacting them.)

SuzyM18th July 2019 at 2:53pm

Activities and events

I saw a fox in our backyard this morning! I was outside doing a bit of sweeping as usual, and around 5:45 a.m. I noticed a creature walking up the south side of our house, from the backyard eastwards to the side. Thought it was a stray cat at first, then realized it was a red fox! It sat and looked at me for a couple of minutes, then continued on its way. I have seen them around the neighborhood occasionally, but this is the closest encounter! They are classified as a feral pest species, but I don’t mind them – I prefer them to the native possums, which are in plague proportions, leave droppings all over the footpaths and are a nuisance generally. So a nice incidental encounter.

Weather

Rain most days, but fine yesterday and today – was able to go on bicycle rides from Tuesday again.

SuzyM24th October 2019 at 4:05pm

Activities and events

  • Haven’t been on a bicycle ride since Thursday due to inclement weather. Not happy!
  • I patted a dog when it came up to me during my walk through King George V Reserve (about 10 minutes east of Tucker Road, over East Boundary Road). It was a big hairy mixed-breed. I rarely have any physical contact with living creatures, so it was nice and comforting, if only very brief.
  • I bought a book called Golden Horse, featuring lovely artistic photos of a Central Asian breed, the Akhal-Teke. It is relatively rare and its coat has a distinctive metallic sheen. It is an elegant breed and appeals greatly to me, so as soon as I saw the book I had to buy it – it had been reduced to $20 from $70! I still have a liking for horses since my initial infatuation when I was around 10 years old or so (I did have a year or so of riding lessons at Mossgiel Ridge Riding Academy in Endeavour Hills, but quit after then due to feeling intimidated by one of the female instructors).

Golden Horse book cover

Weather

Awful since Friday; several cold fronts are crossing the south-east of the continent, so a cold wind and rain every day. A front came through today with some thunder and heavy hail.

SuzyM7th July 2019 at 11:48am

Activities and events

My bicycle ride on Friday was a contrast to the windy day on Monday – almost still, with Port Phillip Bay like a mirror. As pleasant as it could get (except for the usual traffic and awful road surfaces).

R.I.P Uncle John

Uncle John – the husband of Dad’s sister (my paternal Aunt) Hilda – passed away today at 11 a.m. He had been unwell for a long time with dementia.

Weather

Mostly fine, with cold mornings. Rain due later today, though.

SuzyM3rd July 2019 at 5:43pm

Activities and events

  • Had a mild headache this morning; felt tired and off-color. Improved later in the day.
  • Did not go on a bicycle ride today, though I did the previous two days (North Road > Beach Road route). Monday was very windy (cold westerly wind) and thus a difficult ride. I do like to see the Bay, though.
  • Still decluttering and purging. My “Star Warrior” creative work from the last 10 years or so has mostly gone in physical form (drawings and writings), though I still have digital versions; physical art just gets too heavy and space-consuming.

Weather

Mostly fine but with cold mornings, and some morning drizzle.

SuzyM27th June 2019 at 8:06am

Activities and events

  • Timothy Perona and his girlfriend Rebecca visited my parents’ home briefly on Tuesday; they are staying in Melbourne (arrived from Queensland) until Saturday. They all went out to the Bentleigh RSL for lunch.
  • Aunty Hilda knitted and sent a Twiddle Muff to my parents (to resend up to Michele to use with her patients).

Weather

Been fine and sunny for the week so far, but set to end tomorrow. Mornings have been very cold – down to 2°C on Monday morning.

SuzyM22nd June 2019 at 6:31pm

Activities and events

  • Just had a power outage for around 10 minutes (after 6 p.m.) – listed on the United Energy site area map as “Suspected cause – under investigation” – so I lost the entry I had just written! Am trying again.
  • Went on a bicycle ride today, up to North Road and down Beach Road, then up Dendy Street. On my last ride I saw two Australian Wood Ducks on a nature strip along Dendy Street; distinctive birds with greyish bodies and brown heads, and a crest down the neck.
  • Via Facebook Messenger, Heather sent me some photos taken during her current holiday in Greece; it looks a beautiful location, and warm!
  • Had a dream last night where Craig Drummond, Heather’s husband, was talking to me at some gathering and asking me about various things; I mentioned I had never had a boyfriend and he put an arm around me to comfort me (in a non-threatening way). In real life I have not seen Heather for a few years, and Craig even longer.

Heather in Greece, June 2019

Weather

Still dreary with a few light showers, but forecast to be clear for the next few days, though with very cold (single-digit) mornings.

SuzyM21st June 2019 at 5:49pm

Activities and events

Parents and I saw Uncle Brian while at Southland SC – I saw him first, in Woolworths supermarket. He has deteriorated noticeably, and was walking around like a zombie – very vacant-looking. His car accident obviously affected him badly and has exacerbated his dementia and other old-age infirmities (being an alcoholic also damaged his brain). We had a chat, as best we could. His daughter Heather is currently holidaying in Greece – lucky her! I messaged her on her Facebook page later to say we had seen Uncle Brian, which she appreciated.

Weather

Still cold, wet and miserable, though with some sunny breaks. Did not go out on my bicycle.

SuzyM20th June 2019 at 5:56pm

Activities and events

  • A mostly wet and miserable week in terms of weather from Tuesday, so I have not been out on my bicycle since then – though I did manage to go out today (up to North Road then down to Beach Road) when the rain eased in the afternoon for a while. Have not been to Chadstone SC this week. I have not felt like writing much.
  • Mum had her Centrelink pension cut and is very upset, so that will need to be sorted out (hopefully).

Weather

Mostly dreary rain and cold this week; the worst time of year. Next Sunday night is forecast to be only 2°C, which is even worse. The winter solstice – shortest day of the year in the southern hemisphere – happens tomorrow (21st).

SuzyM16th June 2019 at 1:21pm

Activities and events

  • I am continuing with decluttering my possessions at a gradual pace. It is physically and mentally exhausting, but I do feel better after (equivalent of purging). One item decluttered is my old electric typewriter, taken to a charity shop in Bentleigh today – it was bought for me in 1997, got some good use, but I ceased using it once I was given my first computer in September 2001, and has sat in the hall cupboard ever since, never used again. All it was doing is adding weight and taking up space. Dad is equally as bad with hoarding – the backyard garage is full of his accumulated junk, and he really needs to do a cleanout (I would admittedly like to see the garage incinerated along with most of the junk inside it).
  • I went on bicycle rides on Friday and yesterday, up to North Road > Beach Road > Dendy Street > Patterson Road.
  • The new 627 bus route begins today, from Moorabbin Station to Chadstone SC, going along Tucker Road for part of the way – there is now a bus stop only a few doors north of 93 Tucker Road! So it is very convenient.

Weather

Mostly fine and sunny, though with some rain overnight and cold (single-digit) nights.

SuzyM24th October 2019 at 4:05pm

Activities and events

  • Rode my bicycle to Chadstone SC yesterday, but did not buy anything.
  • I am doing yet another purge of my possessions, mainly clothing. An exhausting task, so I can only do a few at a time.

Weather

Rain today, so I did not go anywhere on my bike.

Brandon Sanderson defeat

I have given up trying to read Brandon Sanderson’s major fantasy work, The Stormlight Archive. I ordered Book 1, The Way of Kings and Book 2, Words of Radiance in May 2015 (!) via Book Depository, but have struggled to get through more than a third of Book 1 since then! The series is a projected 10-part epic, the first three being massive tomes of over 1000 pages each. I do not have the bookshelf space for these – the books, even in mass-market paperback format, are heavy, though nicely presented and illustrated – and certainly not the patience to get through them.

His writing style is bland, and I am not the only one to think such (example post in r/Fantasy at Reddit from someone who feels similarly). He is very popular in that forum (the participants, as with Reddit generally, are mostly young American males in their 20s or so), so criticism of him is not taken kindly. Sanderson is very overhyped and is most assuredly not a great writer in terms of prose (compared to, say, Tolkien). He churns out fantasy series in a workmanlike manner – is very organized – but this is at the expense of quality. He is very popular at the moment, and is well-stocked in bookshops, but I don’t think he will persist as a classic author in the way Tolkien has.

SuzyM10th June 2019 at 8:09am

Activities and events

  • Went for a longer bicycle ride yesterday afternoon (up to North Road > Beach Road > Patterson Road and home; just over an hour). The weather had been fine so I couldn’t resist, though the poor road surfaces in parts make the experience unpleasant.
  • Rode to Chadstone SC on Saturday to buy a HEATTECH Stretch Fleece Crew Neck Long Sleeve T-Shirt in pink.
  • Had a migraine headache this morning, so have felt very off-color.

Weather

Fine over the weekend, but rain overnight and today, unfortunately; unsettled weather.

SuzyM6th June 2019 at 4:27pm

Activities and events

  • I went to the City today and bought a WOMEN Blocktech Parka at Uniqlo, colored “Olive” but more of a forest green (a nicer shade) than the khaki-green color I normally associate with olive. It was $100 – ouch! – but it does keep the cold wind off me (I went for a bicycle ride in the afternoon to try it out) and looks nice.
  • Michele rang home earlier; I happened to answer the landline phone and we had a brief chat. She is undergoing her first week of employment – her Facebook page lists her as an Occupational Therapist (OT) at National Occupational Therapy.

Weather

Cold and dreary with some light rain in the morning, but fining up in the afternoon.

SuzyM4th June 2019 at 1:43pm

Activities and events

  • Took my bicycle in for its first (free) service at 99 Bikes in Bentleigh yesterday, and collected it today; no issues so far. I went for a ride after: down Dendy Street, south down Beach Road, up Linacre and Bluff Roads, then home via Patterson Road. The beachside suburbs are pleasant to ride through and look at, though the road surfaces are awful and tyre-unfriendly – very pitted, cracked and bumpy. I have to watch the surface ahead of my bike to try to not ride over these hazards.
  • Had a blow-up at Dad yesterday; I apologized later in the day. I don’t cope well with unexpected events.

Weather

Cold, rainy and gloomy, though at least the rain cleared up this morning.

SuzyM1st June 2019 at 5:52pm

Activities and events

  • I have had a heavy cold, so I have been feeling miserable with a stuffy nose. However it seemed to “turn the corner” last night and I am now feeling a bit better, though my nose will be runny for a while. It runs whenever I eat, exercise or am cold – I think I have non-allergic rhinitis.
  • I rode my bicycle to Chadstone SC to buy another Uniqlo top on special.

Weather

Overcast, dull and cool but no rain at least.

SuzyM31st May 2019 at 6:02pm

Activities and events

  • Mum and Dad arrived home yesterday from Kyneton, around midday.
  • I went to the City yesterday morning – trains were functioning normally this time (no delays).
  • I managed to get out for a bicycle ride this afternoon (did not go yesterday due to awful weather). Up Tucker Road > North Road > Nepean Highway > Patterson Road > home.

Weather

Awful – cold and wet. Set to continue into next week.

SuzyM29th May 2019 at 4:10pm

Activities and events

  • I walked to and from Southland SC today (around 4.3 km each way); had not planned to do so, but initially wanted to take the train back and into Melbourne CBD. Gave up on this in disgust as the Frankston line was experiencing “major delays” again, so I walked home instead (and got very cold). Public transport in Australia is simply not reliable or frequent enough.
  • I also went on a quick bicycle ride early this morning (south down Tucker Road > north up East Boundary Rd > North Rd > Tucker Rd > home – around 8.5 km; a somewhat convoluted route along back streets in the area surrounding these main roads) as it was not raining yet – but the cold north-westerly wind was still gusting.
  • Not surprisingly, I am now exhausted and barely functional, as I tend to feel by the afternoon.
  • My throat feels a bit dry and scratchy; an ominous warning of an oncoming cold.

Weather

A cold gusty north-west wind again. At least the forecast rain mostly held off for the morning, though it is showering now (late afternoon). I utterly hate this weather; it makes me feel vulnerable and I don’t know how homeless people cope with it (probably very badly). It would not take much for me to become homeless and having to survive in this awful season.

SuzyM28th May 2019 at 5:55pm

Activities and events

  • Rode my bicycle to Chadstone to buy another Soft Knitted Fleece High Neck Long Sleeve T-shirt at Uniqlo there (on special for $15; I now have ones in light pink and forest green). Very tired for the rest of the day.
  • Mum and Dad are returning home a day early (Thursday) to avoid Friday traffic, thankfully.

Weather

Another bitterly cold and windy (north-westerly) day, with worse to come tomorrow (only 12° or so with rain).

SuzyM28th May 2019 at 5:56pm

Activities and events

  • Today I took the train to Southland SC; only around 6 minutes from Patterson Station to there. Trains were delayed a bit due to a signal fault (system seems to fall apart whenever the weather is inclement). Weather was very cold, wet and windy, so the 12-minute or so walk down Patterson Road to the station (the nearest one to home at 93 Tucker Road) is an ordeal. Dad used to follow that route when he took the train into the city to his work at the-then Civil Aviation Authority (up to retirement in 1991) so it is a well-trod path for us. I bought a couple of Pusheens that were reduced on sale.
  • I rode my bicycle to Chadstone SC yesterday; did not buy anything of note.
  • Parents have been driving to various local towns near Kyneton, but not much else – it is even colder up there. They ring me in the late afternoon or early evening.

Weather

Cold, windy, wet and generally unpleasant. To be that way for most of this week.

SuzyM25th May 2019 at 5:49pm

Activities and events

  • Mum and Dad left for Kyneton Bushland Resort yesterday, and arrived OK (Mum rang me in the late afternoon).
  • I went to the City today; bought a top at Uniqlo and a couple of secondhand C. J. Cherryh novels at City Basement Books.
  • I ended up cycling to Southland and bought another Pusheen cat (a pink Mermaidsheen Spiral Shell Plush Small) at the newsagent there (the only place that stocks them)! An indulgence ($23!), but I like them; it is my eighth plush toy. They are rather pricey though, so they are only an occasional purchase.

Dreams

24/5: I was with someone, a female dream character. We were out traveling on a day trip. Walking along a main road, we went inside a cafe for a coffee. The DC paid, but then saw the female barista was just using instant coffee from a tin, not via a coffee machine, and we walked out in disgust without getting a refund. We continued northwards along the street, looking for another cafe. We passed one that was full and busy. The road seemed to be in a semi-rural neighborhood, surrounded by a forest on either side.

Weather

Morning rain yesterday, then it fined up a bit for the afternoon, with a northerly wind. More rain due this afternoon, unfortunately, and for most of next week. Fine again today with a north wind, but cloud built up during the afternoon.

SuzyM23rd May 2019 at 6:03pm

Activities and events

  • Mum and Dad leave for Kyneton Bushland resort tomorrow, for one week. Dad’s car (metallic ice-blue Mazda 626 sedan, QRV-121) had to go in for a service – it had developed corrosion in its radiator, which had to be replaced. Mum’s car (ice-blue Toyota Starlet, OYY-126, bought in 1997) is also being troublesome – the engine when starting up sometimes is very rough. Dad thinks it might be the spark plugs. It will have to be serviced also. Both cars are over two decades old, but parents can’t afford new ones.
  • I booked my bicycle in for its first service (free) on Monday 3 May at 99Bikes. Subsequent servicings are charged for.
  • On Monday morning while out for a bike ride, a fox crossed East Boundary Road in front of me. I see foxes in my neighborhood now and then; they are quite common in the suburbs. They are regarded as a feral pest, but I don’t mind them – the native possums are a much greater nuisance, leaving droppings on footpaths and destroying plants in gardens.

Weather

Still fine and sunny with a northerly wind, but unfortunately – and with very bad timing – cold fronts and showers are forecast from tomorrow into most of next week. Which makes going anywhere for me much more difficult and unpleasant (walk or ride or use public transport) as I can’t drive.

SuzyM19th May 2019 at 4:50pm

Election dismay

Sadly, the Liberals/Coalition won the Federal Election, so we have to endure another 3 years of Scott Morrison as Prime Minister. His manner puts me in mind of a stern headmaster, and I don’t find him at all likeable.

Activities and events

Rode my bicycle to Chadstone SC and back, just to visit Uniqlo and buy a HeatTech Scoop Neck Long Sleeve T-shirt (to wear under other clothing as a layer). I have one in blue; this one is pale pink. I have long had a sort of color theme going each week, where I alternate wearing shades of blues and/or greens with pinks or purples (my favorite colors).

Weather

Fine and sunny again, with a light north wind, but rain due tomorrow, unfortunately.

A verse

This just popped into my head while in the shower:

The reassurance of ritual
Gets me through each day
For me to cope with life
It’s the only way.

SuzyM18th May 2019 at 5:44pm

Activities and events

  • Voted for the Federal Election today; I put Labor first on both Senate and House of Representatives ballots, then Sustainable Australia and Greens. Like many I am weary and cynical of the whole campaign.
  • Did not go for a bicycle ride today. The last few mornings have been chilly – single-digit figures – and going riding in that cold is just too miserable as I can’t keep warm.
  • Mum and Dad managed to get another week booked in for Kyneton Bushland Resort; they are leaving next Friday 25/5 and return the following Friday 1/6.

Weather

Fine and sunny yesterday and today; nice Autumn weather – except for the now-chilly mornings.

SuzyM15th May 2019 at 2:55pm

Activities and events

I rode my bicycle quite a distance today – around 17.5 km! Up Tucker Road from home to North Road, all the way down to Beach Road, then to South Road, and up Patterson Road and back home. I have not been along that route for many years – 10 at least. Nice to see all the old familiar places again, and Port Phillip Bay (sea was greyish today due to overcast cloud cover). My family used to drive to Gran’s home (then 14 Bridge Street Elsternwick) every Saturday evening for dinner, and other times as well, so the landscape is embedded in my long-term memory.

Weather

Fine and still. Some cold nights coming up (single-digit figures).

SuzyM15th May 2019 at 2:39pm

Activities and events

I saw a Tawny Frogmouth sitting on the mains wire outside home (connecting outside power lines to our house supply) early yesterday morning when going out for my bicycle ride – I have seen these birds in the neighbourhood before on occasion (similarly perched on overhead power lines), but this is the first one I have seen at home. Went for my bike ride this morning too. Bought a “Multitube” bandanna-type neck tube that can be worn as a neck tube, bandanna or headband ($18 at 99Bikes). Did help keep the cold off my face this morning when worn pulled up over my nose.

Weather

Sunny today, with a cool northerly wind. Not going to last, unfortunately, though so far not predicted to be as bad as last Friday.

Monk discipline

I was reading this favorite 2013 article, “Last Call -- A Buddhist monk confronts Japan’s suicide culture,” (also Archive.org link) which I have had a copy of since then. The description of the monks’ daily routine in their monastery struck me as a little like my own self-inflicted regime (I am up before 4 a.m.):

Apprentice monks are treated like slaves on a brutal plantation. They must follow orders and never say no. They sleep very little. They rise at four. Most of the time they eat only a small amount of rice and, occasionally, pickles (fresh vegetables and meat are forbidden). There is no heat, even though it can be very cold on the mountain, and the monks wear sandals and cotton robes. Junior monks are not permitted to read.

There are many menial tasks a monk must complete in a day (cooking, cleaning, cutting down trees, chopping wood, making brooms), and he is given very little time to do them. If he does not move fast enough, senior monks scream at him. There is very little talking—only bell ringing (to indicate a change in activity) and screaming. There is a correct way to do everything, which is vigorously enforced. When a monk wakes in the morning, he must not move until a bell is rung. When the bell rings, he must move very fast. He has about four minutes (until the next bell rings) to put up his futon, open a window, run to the toilet, gargle with salt water, wash his face, put on his robes, and run to the meditation hall. At first, it is very hard to do all those things in four minutes, but gradually he develops techniques for increasing his speed. Because he is forced to develop these techniques, and because even with the techniques it is still difficult to move fast enough, he is intensely aware of everything he is doing.

He is always too slow, he is always afraid, and he is always being scrutinized. In the winter, he is cold, but if he looks cold he is screamed at. There is no solitude. The constant screaming and the running, along with chronic exhaustion, produce in him a state of low-level panic, which is also a state of acute focus. It is as if his thinking mind, his doubting and critical and interpreting mind, had shut down and been replaced by a simpler mechanism that serves the body.

SuzyM5th April 2021 at 4:56am

Weather

Rainy and cold today; did not go out on my bicycle at all. Very unpleasant.

Childish movies

Disney reveals the future of cinema and for grown-ups it’s not good,” The Age 8/5. I have come to hate Disney and its overarching domination of cinema now; the rubbish and childish blockbuster movies that it churns out each year overshadow all other movies, namely the lower budget, independent and truly original movies. The company has been buying up other movie companies and is slowly but surely consuming all competition.

That’s the response from the grown-ups who wonder if there will soon be no room at all left on the big screen for anything but big-budget franchise blockbusters.

[…] If this was the first glimpse of the future now that Disney has acquired Fox, there’s reason to be a little afraid. Though a handful of the sort of adult-oriented award-friendly films that Fox has released under its Searchlight banner have a place on the line-up, they are massively outnumbered by franchises, sequels and spin-offs. If you care about original stories for grown-ups, move along – there’s nothing (much) to see here.

[…] But Disney releases aren’t the same as other releases. With their massive marketing campaigns and monopolisation of screens, they suck the oxygen out of the market, leaving competitors to scrap it out for whatever audience tidbits remain.

And it’s only getting more so. A decade ago, Disney’s share of the North American box office was 11.5 per cent. In 2014 it was just under 15 per cent. Last year, Disney accounted for just over one-quarter of the North American market. In the year to date, it has just over a third – and with the Fox share added, the total is now hovering around the 40 per cent mark.

An older article from 2009 laments that “Grown-up movies are an endangered species.” Again, thoughtful mature movies have little chance when competing against shallow blockbuster-style movies.

In the wake of high-profile dramas flopping at the box office – including Frost/Nixon, Australia, Revolutionary Road and State of Play – studios are increasingly gun-shy about making movies that don’t offer pure escapism. Even the frothy, adult-oriented caper “Duplicity” struggled to find a wide audience.

One producer who specializes in dramas says the climate is as brutal as he’s ever seen it: “Anything that can’t be sold as a genre film or wasn’t conceived as a franchise is dead.”

Even projects that might once have been considered Oscar bait have fallen prey to executives’ squeamishness. Paramount turned down director Bill Condon’s planned biopic about Richard Pryor, with Eddie Murphy attached to star. Universal axed a drama starring Naomi Watts about a global activist.

“With the economy being what it is, no one wants to get blamed for a failure,” says one agent. “If you greenlight something that’s (totally mainstream) and it fails, it’s not your fault. If you greenlight an adult drama and it tanks, you lose your job.”

Silence

I have been reading and watching the respective novel and movie Silence, a tale of a Portugese Jesuit priest secretly ministering to hidden Christians in 17th-century Japan, where Christians were being persecuted and eliminated. He is caught and his Japanese captors repeatedly and brutally try to make him apostatize (in this case, step on a fumi-e, a crudely carved crucifix, to symbolize his rejection of the religion. It is a very difficult and agonizing choice for him – he is damned if he does or does not (other captured Japanese Christians are brutally tortured if he chooses not to) – and so there are no easy decisions. He will be in great mental agony either way, and have to live with the consequences of his decision.

This is an example of a thought-provoking and serious adult movie that the previous articles I linked to inferred. It is true movie art, but is the sort of film that can’t compete with the shallow blockbusters, sadly, despite the director, Martin Scorsese, being greatly-respected in Hollywood.

I have come around to not disliking Catholicism – as my family are Protestant Baptists, the animosity between the two branches of the faith has always been in the background. I particularly like Jesuits (one of my favorite science fiction novels, The Sparrow by Mary Doria Russell, features a Jesuit interstellar expedition to a nearby star with the characters similarly encountering an alien culture and meeting a grim fate to that of those in Silence – more on that theme another time). Despite the theological differences, both branches of Christianity still have a common foe in Islam, which is a far greater threat to Western society.

SuzyM5th April 2021 at 4:57am

Activities and events

  • I rode my bicycle to Chadstone SC yesterday as a test run; it was much easier than on my MTB, though the road surfaces were awful as usual. I bought a pair of sparkly charcoal-grey legwarmers at Uniqlo (I have similar pairs in indigo blue and silver-grey).
  • I went to the city by train today, to buy the latest edition of the Avatar: Tsu’Tey’s Path comic (#4 of 6). It retells some scenes in the movie from the titular character’s point of view. It is … passable, but not original or riveting. The artwork is OK (though I dislike the trend of copying or tracing some movie scenes). I am buying it more out of duty than any enthusiasm. Adding to my apathy is the latest news that the Avatar movie sequel has been pushed back yet again, to 17/12/2021 – over 2 1/2 years away. My initial fandom has been waning for a few years, and I don’t know if I can maintain it that long.

Weather

Very unsettled today, with rain and a cold front approaching. Yesterday was relatively warm and sunny.

SuzyM7th May 2019 at 5:39pm

Activities and events

I had a haircut today, at Southland SC; $22 at Hairworld. Overpriced for a simple trim, but that is the usual price these days, unfortunately.

Principal Stone passed away

The former Principal of Kilvington when I was there (1976-1988), Mr. Warren Stone, passed away on 3/5. From the Kilvington Facebook page:

It is with deep sadness we announce that former Kilvington Baptist Girls Grammar School Principal, Warren Stone, passed away peacefully on Friday 3 May.

Warren Stone was Kilvington’s first male Principal, filling this role from 1974-1993. As a passionate supporter of the Arts, he was instrumental in the production of Kilvington’s very first musical in 1975, Gilbert & Sullivan’s H M S Pinafore. The enormous success of the production was the catalyst for Performing Arts becoming the Kilvington flagship program it is today.

Under Warren’s erudite leadership, Kilvington enjoyed a burgeoning reputation as a fine girls’ school. Facilities were expanded and improved during his tenure, buildings were renovated and modernised, Dalton Hall was completed and the current Senior School was built. Importantly, Warren grew the School to its highest level of enrolments as a girls school.

Warren maintained a keen interest in Kilvington following his Principalship, attending events and supporting many initiatives. He will be sadly missed.

We extend our deepest sympathy to his children Jonathon, Allison, Peter and Ben and their families. A funeral service will be held on Thursday 9 May at 11.30am at Canterbury Baptist Church, 1A Balwyn Road, Canterbury.

Weather

Fine and sunny today, with a north wind – but rain coming from tomorrow, unfortunately.

SuzyM5th May 2019 at 3:26pm

Activities and events

  • Went on my early morning bike ride. Also went out late morning, down South Road almost to Beach Road – a bit further than I intended! I glimpsed Port Phillip Bay; I have not been down that way on a bike in a few years. I turned back and went home; stopped at 99 Bikes on the way but did not buy anything. I just wanted to keep going and going!
  • A quiet Sunday as usual; parents went to Bentleigh Baptist Church service.

Weather

Rain overnight, but had cleared up by early this morning.

Dreams

In my last dream of last night, I was walking down Tucker Road, southward toward home. I saw what looked like a waterspout forming in a storm in the western sky, and said to my sister Michele that we better hurry. I was carrying my new bike slung across my back; it was very light.

SuzyM4th May 2019 at 6:21pm

Activities and events

Been doing much the usual: to Southland SC in the morning with parents, chores during the rest of each day, exercise, meal rituals. Riding my bicycle most early mornings for around 1/2 hour or so, weather depending – there is little traffic around 4:30 a.m., so I prefer going out early (though cold weather makes it difficult!). Fatigue and weariness set in by the afternoon.

Weather

Rain, unfortunately, the last few days, and more next week. Hate it and wish it would never rain again.

SuzyM30th April 2019 at 5:47pm

Activities and events

  • I have been doing some purging of books (yet again). They are heavy and take up space, and I have not read some in years. It is a bit painful and tiring, but I only have limited space (and I have ebook copies of most). Most are from the Halo gaming franchise, which I have lost interest in, in recent years. I will have to gradually get rid of various things over the next few weeks in an attempt at some decluttering – this is mentally refreshing, too.
  • My road bicycle is functioning OK. I have been going out most mornings, weather depending. I can go much faster and easier!

SuzyM6th May 2019 at 1:22pm

Activities and events

  • ANZAC Day today – no shops open until 1 pm. The day is pretty much irrelevant to me and not being able to go anywhere is an annoyance.
  • Parents decided not to go to Kyneton for their week-long vacation – they would have left today.
  • I have been riding my new bicycle around most days – I can go a lot further and faster! On Tuesday I rode up to East Boundary Road, to North Road, down to Hawthorn Road and Nepean Highway, then home to Tucker Road along Patterson Road – nearly 12 km according to Google Maps! I was a bit tired after, but not as much as I would have been on my old mountain bicycle. (Speaking of which, I will still keep it and ride it sometimes, mainly for going to local shops.) Admittedly, the road bike is probably not the most practical bike I could have chosen, but I fell in love with it almost instantly and I really wanted a proper “serious” road bike (it is a lower-entry bike – can’t afford $1000 and up for the better-quality ones – but good enough for my usage).

My first bicycle that I bought with my own money was an aqua-and-white road bike (Malvern Star Triathlete brand) for around $700, back in 1990 or so. I regrettably sold it to Chris Perona when I thought I had lost interest in bicycling. Below is a photo Michele took of me with the bicycle in Christmas 1990 – I had ridden it to my cousin Heather’s home of then (somewhere out in the south-east suburbs – can’t remember the address):
Suzy with first road bike, December 1990

SuzyM20th April 2019 at 6:43pm

Activities and events

My parents bought me a bicycle!! Dad took me to a local bike shop this afternoon (99 Bikes at the corner of Patterson Road and Nepean Highway), and I saw one that was reasonably affordable and similar to what I wanted: a basic drop-handled road bike. I have had enough of heavy clunky mountain bikes – my old one is nearly 30 years old (bought in 1991) – and getting it fully serviced with necessary parts replaced would probably cost nearly as much as a new one.

Alex, the sales assistant, was quite helpful; he had some trouble though getting a size small enough to fit me! (Extra-small, as it happened – 44 cm.) The brand is a 2019 Pedal Pursuit (Archive.org backup link), matt black in color with some blue trim; serial number is R050040484.

The drop handles will take some getting used to – the aqua-and-white $700 bicycle I bought way back around 1990 or so was a similar road bike, but I unfortunately sold it to my husband-in-law, Chris Perona, when I thought I had lost interest in cycling, and it now seems to have vanished.

Bicycle was $404 – discounted as they were selling little of that size! I was measured as 158 cm, so sometimes it pays to be short :-).

I feel overwhelmed, flustered and agitated – I will now have to get used to riding the bicycle (cautiously!). Don’t know if I will dare to ride it to any shops yet as I am scared it will be stolen!

Weather

Another warm spell, up to around 30°C. Rain due later tomorrow, though.

SuzyM7th October 2019 at 8:04am

Activities and events

  • I had another look at my bicycle earlier and saw that one back wheel spoke is broken :-(. So that will need replacing.
  • No visit to Southland today as all shops are closed for Good Friday.
  • A bright full Moon was setting in the clear early morning sky when I went for a bike ride. Quite cool this morning (around 10°C) in contrast to Wednesday morning, when it was around 20°C and I was wearing shorts!

SuzyM18th April 2019 at 2:33pm

Activities and events

  • Did a little cleaning of my bicycle – it is filthy with dirt and grease. It really needs to be disassembled and cleaned thoroughly, but that is way beyond my ability and strength. Even the small effort of today has exhausted me.
  • To Southland as usual each morning with parents. Tomorrow is Good Friday (everything is closed) and the Easter weekend. Am sick of seeing eggs and rabbits everywhere – the greedy commercialization has nothing to do with the real Christian religious meaning of Easter.
  • I did not bicycle to Chadstone SC this week – nothing I wanted there, and too tired.

Weather

Warm yesterday – nearly 30°C – then a cool change overnight and much cooler today.

SuzyM15th April 2019 at 4:26pm

Activities and events

  • Went for my early morning bicycle ride. No headache this morning.
  • To Southland SC with parents as usual.
  • Michele’s daughter Trinity (last-born of her four, whom I am aunt to) makes small soft toys; she put up a photo of some in a Myer department store display case. They looked quite cute, so I decided to order a small purple starfish ($7.99 + $10 postage) – I will try electronic money transfer from my bank account to hers tomorrow.

Weather

Fine and sunny; it is to be warm for most of the week.

Dreams

  • Some girls were in a small room (like Mum’s old bedroom in Gran’s home) playing AFLW. First few are not very good, so two more come and play against each other who are a lot more dynamic.
  • I am in a house on Orthe (an alien planet in Golden Witchbreed). I am having dinner around a table with some of the native aliens there (humanoid in appearance).

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SuzyM14th April 2019 at 12:58pm

Activities and events

  • My bicycle developed a squeaking and grinding in the pedal gear shaft; Dad says the lubrication there is going. I can’t take it in for a check-up due to the time of year (nearing the Easter break) and parents leaving for Kyneton in a couple of weeks. I really need a new (or refurbished secondhand) bicycle as my old mountain bike (bought in 1991) is almost unrideable and unroadworthy.
  • Strider, Michele and Chris’s Doberman, turned 10 years old today.

Weather

Fine and sunny; nice still Autumn weather. Makes me feel nostalgic for days long gone.

SuzyM11th April 2019 at 6:13pm

Activities and events

  • Rode my bicycle to Chadstone SC and back (around 40m each way). Bought a Women Pocketable Parka in blue (I have one in dark green). Very tired for the rest of the day.
  • Uncle Brian wrecked his car in an accident in Richmond – neither he nor anyone else was hurt. He was born in 1927 and is now too old to drive (being an alcoholic does not help either), so his licence will likely be revoked after this.
  • Federal Election is set for 18 May, so the country will be inundated with wearisome election ads and campaigning from various parties. I will vote Labor as always, but, like a lot of other people, am disillusioned with and disengaged from politics.

Weather

Fine and sunny.

SuzyM10th April 2019 at 6:23pm

Activities and events

  • Did not feel like writing yesterday. Just did the usual activities (to Southland in the morning with my parents). I did not go on my early morning bike rides as there was intermittent rain – this is clearing today. I go for a walk or do a low-impact exercise video as alternatives.
  • Mum and Dad are leaving for Kyneton Bushland Resort on 25/4 (Anzac Day) for one week, as they have done for several years now, usually twice a year. I stay at home. Main disadvantage for me is my lack of car transport as I can’t drive (I barely managed to qualify for my licence back in 1988, and did not continue driving – to my regret now – as I lost my nerve), so I have to rely on public transport or ride my old bicycle.
  • I did a little work on my website, the RuSpace (Russian Spaceflight) section, which I have maintained since 2003. My interest in the Russian spaceflight program is still ongoing, though subdued in recent years.

Weather

Showers yesterday and today, but clearing up for the next couple of days, thankfully. Cold nights (single-digit figures) tonight and tomorrow.

SuzyM8th April 2019 at 5:34pm

Activities and events

  • Had one of my random migraines that began overnight and was severe this morning – I was groaning with pain and barely functioning. I went on my early morning bicycle ride, but should have given it a miss.
  • Mum and Dad went to Bentleigh Baptist Church yesterday as usual. Charmaine’s daughter Stephanie was there. (Charmaine is a friend whom I knew from Sunday School in the 1980s, but I have not seen or spoken her for a few years.)
  • To Southland as usual with parents for a coffee.
  • In a dream this morning, a raven took a dislike to Dad when we were driving to Southland and dived to attack him after he got out of the car to see where the raven was (in a backyard near the Rowans Rd-Wickhams Rd intersection).

Weather

Fine and sunny yesterday. Initially fine today, but a cool change and rain by the late afternoon.

SuzyM6th October 2019 at 6:39pm

Activities and events

  • Went on my early morning bicycle ride. A very windy cooler change blew in overnight, but the wind had fortunately abated by the time I went out.
  • To Southland this morning with parents as usual for a coffee. Bought some washi tape from Kmart.
  • Daylight Savings ends tonight – I don’t mind it so much anymore as I get up early anyway (before 4 am).

Weather

Fine and sunny, but cooler than yesterday.

SuzyM6th April 2019 at 2:42pm

Activities and events

  • To Southland with parents for a coffee.
  • Went on early morning bicycle ride.
  • Dad bought a larger flatscreen digital TV of the same brand (HiSense) for the lounge room! The old one was malfunctioning a bit.
  • I though I would try using washi tape (Japanese-inspired patterned sticky tape) to distinguish my computer and other electrical cables, so I will look for some tomorrow.
  • Tired and cranky as usual at this time of day (late afternoon).

Weather

Fine and sunny; northerly wind.

SuzyM20th November 2019 at 3:46pm

Activities and events

  • Went on my early morning bicycle ride (southward down Tucker Road, north up East Boundary Road to McKinnon road, then back home via back streets).
  • I went to Southland SC for a coffee with Mum and Dad, then caught a Frankston line train to the city (Melbourne CBD) and Flinders Street Station. I just went in to collect a comicbook that I had reserved at All Star Comics: Halo: Lone Wolf #4. I have been collecting and reading the Halo game merchandise and world lore for many years – though I have never played the game! (I have never felt any interest in playing video games.)
  • My old TV – a birthday present in 2009 – had long been having trouble picking up some digital channels when tuning it, so Dad went out this afternoon and unexpectedly bought me a new one! I tuned it and it seems to be working fine – all digital channels detected – so that improves viewing a lot for me.

Weather

Fine, still, sunny – the sort of weather I like.

SuzyM24th October 2019 at 4:05pm

Activities and events

  • I went to Southland this morning with Mum and Dad for a coffee, as usual. They went to Bentleigh RSL for a cooked lunch, which they have been doing regularly once a week for a couple of years at least.
  • Two rainbow lorikeets visited the grevillea in our backyard for its nectar, as they do sometimes. I also saw a grey butcherbird, which has a melodious song.
  • Out of nostalgia, I ordered a secondhand novel from Abebooks, The Gismo from Outer Space by Keo Felker Lazarus; I remember reading it in the late 1970s. It was bought from one of my school’s (Kilvington) yearly Scholastic book orders, which I loved.

SuzyM3rd April 2019 at 8:17am

Activities and events

  • Went to Southland for coffee with Mum and Dad.
  • I rode my bicycle to Chadstone Shopping Centre; bought a “WOMEN Double Face Long Sleeve Pullover” in dark forest green at Uniqlo ($30). I have bought a lot of clothes there since it opened a few years ago; they are decent quality and not too expensive. Tired from the bicycle ride (around 40 minutes each way). As usual, that and my chores have left me too exhausted to attempt anything creative. Even writing this entry is an effort.
  • I imported a few 2015 and 2016 entries from earlier attempts at TiddlyWiki blogs. I’ll have to tidy up the tags for them.

Weather

A cold morning (8°C or so) but fine and sunny later, at last with a light wind. Quite pleasant (especially for bike riding).

SuzyM2nd April 2019 at 3:59pm

Activities and events

  • Went on my early morning bicycle ride. The worst of yesterday’s weather had passed, thankfully.
  • Mum and Dad went to Bentleigh Baptist Church as usual for the morning service there.
  • I rode to Bentleigh to visit an Op Shop (charity shop) there; nothing of interest.
  • Felt very fatigued this afternoon, which is usual for me now; I have an awful energy slump that time of day for some reason. My mind seems to be more energetic in the early morning and I make mental plans for things to do, but have run out of energy by the afternoon and never get any of my tasks done (mainly creative work on my computer).

Weather

A little rain this afternoon, but nothing as awful as yesterday’s squally showers and wind; it was the coldest March day in 4 years.

SuzyM24th October 2019 at 4:05pm

Activities and events

  • Went for my early morning bicycle ride – well-timed for once, as heavy rain began falling a bit later, and continued into the morning, most unpleasantly. It is now cold and wet, in contrast to yesterday. I hate rain and wish it would never rain again.
  • Dad’s 86th birthday today. We (he, Mum and I) went to Southland SC for our early morning coffee as usual.

Weather

A cold front came through overnight and awful heavy rain fell in heavy squalls into the morning and afternoon. Very unpleasant.

Books read

I finished the first three novels in the science fiction Aurora Rhapsody series – the Aurora Rising sequence – by G. S. Jennsen. It follows the adventures of various individuals and their uncovering of a vast conspiracy where aliens from another dimension – who have been observing humanity for aeons – enter our universe via a dimensional portal and seek to destroy us as they perceive us as a threat. One of the aliens is sympathetic towards humanity, however, and aids and advises two of the main characters (Alex Solovy and Caleb Marano, who become lovers). A massive battle ensues, and the aliens are driven back through the portal.

There are six more books in the series (three in Aurora Renegades and the final three in Aurora Resonant). The first three were a decent read, with a lot of “magical” advanced technology that is standard in most sci-fi these days, such as sapient Artificial Intelligences and Faster-than-Light travel, in the form of a “sLume drive” (superluminal drive) – a version of the Alcubierre warp drive.

I would not thus describe the novels as “hard” sci-fi, though, as that problem of FTL travel also implying time travel is ignored (as a lot of such authors do, probably out of lack of awareness as most are not physicists with degrees). From that blog entry I linked to:

If you allow faster-than-light (FTL), then you break causality: you are allowing time-travel. One pithy way of saying this is:

Pick two:

  • Relativity
  • Causality
  • FTL

The Universe has picked relativity and causality, it seems. Thus, we cannot travel or communicate faster than light.

There is also FTL communication, in the form of quantum entanglement:

By Monday morning on the planet Atlantis (which for added fun was around three in the morning in Seattle) all his assets would be in place, and everything they saw, touched and interacted with fed to his office via an instantaneous quantum entanglement communication network.
Starshine, Chapter 6

In reality this is impossible, again due to causality issues. From the linked blog entry:

I could, for example, create pairs of entangled photons in different particular quantum states. One state could represent a 1, and the other a 0. All my distant colleague needs to do is determine which quantum state a particular pair is in. But to do this my colleague would need to make lots of copies of a quantum state, then make measurements of these copies in order to determine statistically the state of the original. But it turns out you can’t make a copy of a quantum system without knowing the state of the quantum system. This is known as the no-cloning theorem, and it means entangled systems can’t transmit messages faster than light.

My own Star Warrior worldbuilding project (in a very slow reboot) is becoming more reality-based, rather than the previous “magic” sci-fi version with FTL travel and such. I seem to have the sort of mindset that demands rational explanations for everything, and to be reality-based – so fantasy fiction does not appeal that much to me. A lot of so-called science fiction is magic by another name – anything with FTL travel, psychic powers and so on (Star Trek and Star Wars are major offenders in this) – and I am increasingly exasperated with this.

This factor is why I tend to be disappointed with authors who introduce FTL travel later on in their series when they have previously used relatively realistic means of slower-than-light interstellar travel – it is a kind of cheating, in my view. Two examples of this:

  • In Harry Turtledove’s Worldwar series, lizard-like aliens from a (relatively) nearby star system (Tau Ceti, just under 12 light years from Earth) use STL fusion-powered starships and hibernation technology to attack and colonize Earth. In the last book, Homeward Bound, humans invent a FTL drive.
  • In Allen Steele’s Coyote series, disaffected colonists steal a STL fusion-powered starship from a totalitarian U.S. Government project and head off for a one-way journey to the 47 Ursae Majoris system, some 46 light years away (the colonists spend the 226-years’ travel time in hibernation). However, means to construct a “Starbridge” – a wormhole – are invented in the third novel of the trilogy (Coyote Frontier).

SuzyM2nd April 2019 at 3:58pm

I’ll try keeping an almost-daily Journal again – using Tiddlywiki in my Internet browser seems to be easier and more “fun.”

Activities and events

  • Went for an early morning bicycle ride from 4:30 am on my old and heavy mountain bike. This has become a mostly-daily exercise (around 1/2 hour, around local streets). Really wish I had a drop-handle road bike; even a refurbished basic second-hand one would be an improvement on my current one.
  • I went to Southland Shopping Centre for coffee with Mum and Dad as usual (from 8:30 am). I can’t drive so we go in Dad’s car (metallic ice-blue Mazda 626 sedan, QRV-121).
  • Had one of my random migraine-like headaches from early morning. Makes things even more difficult.
  • I went for a 1/2-hour walk around the neighborhood. Route to King George V reserve – have not been there since early last year and subsequent series of foot overuse injuries.
  • Dad increased my weekly “pocket money” from $50 (which it has been for years) to $70 – much-needed as everything is so expensive! I buy a few groceries and other items, and most of it has gone. Wish I could get a disability pension, but the miserable mean Liberal government has made this near-impossible.

Weather

Mild, even warm but overcast and unsettled, with a cold change or front due later in the day. The Autumn equinox was last week (Thursday 21st), so the worst summer heat is over. Deciduous tree leaves in the neighborhood are turning Autumn shades of red, gold and orange.

SuzyM14th October 2019 at 4:00pm

SuzyM24th October 2019 at 4:05pm

Want to use TiddlyWiki again, but have some doubts, and thoughts.

  • Still no way to generate single static pages for each Tiddly aside from the convoluted Node.js method via the command line (see my posts at https://groups.google.com/forum/?nomobile=true#!searchin/tiddlywiki/Suzanne$20McHale%7Csort:date/tiddlywiki/vTqF5EEHJE0/N6lcK2W6BAAJ) – that is not a beginner-friendly method!
  • Javascript-based tag pills do not work in exported static HTML page.
  • “Feature creep” – TW is getting more and more features added to it, which is adding to the basic file size.
  • I want to use TW as simply as possible, in its original intent – as a browser-based program. I have my browser open all the time when on my PC, and it is very convenient to switch a tab to my TW, rather than the other methods of using it via a server, or a stand-alone program such as Tiddlydesktop. Will TW be able to be used like this into the future?
  • Is TW still future-proof (as much as a program can be)?

Despite my trepidations, I still like the program and want to be able to use it (have to admit that I spend a bit of time “playing” with it!). I still have not found the “one program to rule them all” when it comes to writing and recording my data and creative work, but TW has a lot of elements I like. (Dokuwiki is another wiki I like, but it is more complex and requires a server to function.) The community around it is also welcoming and friendly!

Edit, 21/1/2019: Posted to TW Google Group: https://groups.google.com/forum/#!topic/tiddlywiki/WYbOdQIAz58

A book whose title I can’t recall

  • 1970s Scholastic order
  • Book of horror short stories; its cover art featured plant eating a man
  • One story was of a woman with an abusive husband who discovered something living far down a well; she began communicating with them – they were friendly to her – eventually her husband found out and wanted to go down (I think those down the well sent up some treasure or something to lure him); he went down and something unpleasant happened to him, to the woman’s relief.

SuzyM14th October 2019 at 3:53pm

SuzyM5th February 2016 at 5:26pm

3:15 a.m.: I am walking along South Road, on the south side and east of Moorabbin shops. The weather is wet and I am wearing a raincoat. Someone is walking behind me.

I look out my bedroom window. I see an iPad Pro and Pencil being recharged; they are secured to the fence and hanging over it. I go and get Dad to have a look. We come back to my room and I see a couple of huntsman spiders on the wall, so I spray them with insecticide.

SuzyM5th February 2016 at 5:25pm

3:36 a.m.: Dreams faded almost as soon as I awoke. I am going to some school – it is simultaneously the Moorabbin TAFE and Kilvington. I walk up some steps to the reception lobby – this is the one that was at Kilvington when I was there. In another scene, I am with a dream character who lures some girls to kidnap them. They are Kilvington classmates; one is Nicole Arnold. They are put in the back of a van.

SuzyM5th February 2016 at 5:26pm

3:20 p.m.: I was walking around a corner of Southland SC, past the Bardot store towards the Karen Street entrance. Uncle Brian and Heather came toward me, walking in the opposite direction.

SuzyM5th February 2016 at 5:27pm

2:50 a.m.: I was half-awake and felt something jump on the bed and walk up alongside me to breathe on me under my bedsheet cover. It seemed to be the presence of Tikky, our long-deceased cat. The presence was invisible, but felt quite real, and the experience was unnerving – perhaps sleep paralysis?

In a later dream, I was in Southland SC, entering via the Karen Street entrance. I looked at where there used to be a side-corridor with shops that was now filled in (this was the dream version, not the real-world one).

SuzyM5th February 2016 at 5:28pm

7:19 p.m.: Dreams have faded from this morning, but one image is of me being at the big Duncan McKinnon Reserve (beside Murrumbeena and North Roads), another recurring place I visit in dreams. I go along a smaller road beside it (Crosbie Road), find a cave, and go in and lie down. Some other dream characters come in to look for me.

Another dream that took place in this location is of going to a Kilvington schoolfriend’s house for a meet-up with other classmates and looking around their two-storied house; it felt quite realistic (and has recurred occasionally). Robyn Kaye lived here in the early 1980s and I visited her house a few times.

SuzyM5th February 2016 at 5:45pm

7:21 p.m.: Dreams from this morning have mostly faded, but I remember walking around the rear of the nearby Tucker-Patterson Road shopping strip – a maze of corrugated iron fences in the dream. That location is another recurring image over the years. In a subsequent scene there was graffiti on the front fence of our home, which I tried to clean off (another recurring image).

In a dream from a few years ago, I walked past the shops in the early morning and went in to get an icypole. This felt quite realistic, as though I had done it in real life.

SuzyM6th April 2019 at 4:12pm

12:52 p.m.: Fragment from my last dream this morning: an older woman who is a customer at Romano’s Coffee in Southland walks through the rear gate opening onto the backyard of my parents’ home as I exit it; she is staying there as there is some sort of lodging arrangement.

SuzyM5th February 2016 at 5:48pm

3:30 p.m.: Awoke after falling in front of TV yesterday evening. I was going to dinner with family members and others. The location seemed to be near Port Phillip Bay; we descended some steep stairs facing west. Some Polynesians greet us with a ceremony as we walk through some tropical vegetation.

Next we are in a playroom, similar to the playroom at the back of Bentleigh Baptist Church. Some geese appear in a cage; they are white and wearing clothing. A piebald baby elephant is running around.

SuzyM5th February 2016 at 5:48pm

1:41 p.m.: Last dream from this morning: I am in Afghanistan, on the slope of a hill. I have the head of an old woman with me. I dig a hole for it and carefully bury it. Earlier, I was walking around some suburban streets closer toward the city with some family, I think.

SuzyM5th February 2016 at 5:51pm

1:05 a.m.:

  • Someone whom I know gets into a fighter jet and flies away, leaving a trail of smoke.
  • I look up into the sky; I seem to be in the backyard of Gran’s home. There is a big fleet of Army and Air Force helicopters in formation, flying west; they are heading off to the Avalon International Airshow. I then see a lot of skydivers jumping out for a display.
  • I pull my nightguard out and inspect it; it starts to crumble away (this is a recurring scene in my dreams).
  • I walk along an alleyway and see a girl on a tractor approaching. I turn to get away and see two men sitting on the ground in the distance. She then catches up and offers me a ride; what initially seemed threatening became helpful. I keep trying to get into the seat from behind but can’t find the right position.

My last dream before waking in the morning featured monorail trains running around various tracks, some threatening to collide with me.

SuzyM5th February 2016 at 5:52pm

4:40 a.m.: I am walking northwards up a hill in a city – feels like New York – with a male and female dream characters. They have walked 12 km or so and do this regularly to get to work.

I am now on the summit of a steep hill in the country – somewhat similar to the Cardinia Dam – looking southeast at what seem to be storm clouds. The cloudy sky is a lemon and lavender color.

Dad starts driving down a steep winding road, and nearly goes over the edge of one sharp bend. I look down and see other cars similarly get into trouble. One loses control and runs into another in a car park far below.

SuzyM5th February 2016 at 5:53pm

7:25 p.m.: Something about getting an Apple computer; a laptop, perhaps.

SuzyM5th February 2016 at 5:53pm

3:27 p.m.: Had a dream about the Avatar movie last night, just before I awoke this morning. It is vague now but it was something to do with the plot for the next movie.

SuzyM5th February 2016 at 5:55pm

4:54 a.m.: I went to see a movie called The Martian (I haven’t seen it in reality). Some scenes from it played as though I was in them. The astronaut was outside his spaceship in some sort of danger. I had been supposed to meet Michele at the shopping centre where it was screening, but an emergency incident there meant that she couldn’t get in. She told me this when I got home. Mum and Sasha the dog were there.

SuzyM5th February 2016 at 5:56pm

3:52 a.m.:

  • I am working at Bentleigh Safeway on a register. The electronic display screen is different from the others, and I can’t figure out where the delete key is until a woman customer whom I am serving shows me. The screen is black & white with an odd display. In another scene there, I walk through the store on my day off, and see one of the girls from Romano’s Coffee (in Southland) there.
  • In another dream scene I walk through some back streets around Bentleigh, to its north. I go past two men in the front yard of a house who are in morph suits (black bodies with white faces); they seem to be doing some sort of performance art. They are seated facing each other; one is reciting something.
  • My bedroom is on fire. I am making my bed, and the floor is heating up; I have to climb on to my bed repeatedly to escape the heat. At last I have to leave, though I don’t want to. I get a hose outside and start spraying water on the house. I can see the red glow of fire in my bedroom. The fire goes out eventually.

SuzyM5th February 2016 at 5:57pm

11 p.m.: Dream fragments – I fell asleep in front of the TV:

  • I was on Lahona Street, on the hill east of my parents’ home. Strong feeling of nostalgia for how the houses used to look, as seen in the TV program/series Neighbours.
  • A man had been tortured and was taken away for recovery. Something about being linked to an Artifical Intellgence that had done the torture.

SuzyM2nd April 2019 at 3:07pm

I had a quiet New Year’s Eve as usual; too hot to do anything anyway. The fireworks in Melbourne were audible here. I could have gone up the hill opposite us (Pollina Street) for a glimpse of them – perhaps I will next NYE.

Southland Shopping Centre did not open until 11 a.m., annoyingly, so my parents and I did not go for our regular cappuccino. I did ride my bicycle there later (20-25 m) to get a T-shirt at Target, an uncomfortably sweaty ride.

I got my cappuccino at Tucker Road Coffee in the nearby shopping strip; it was also open Christmas Day, surprisingly.

The night was unpleasantly warm, but today was somewhat cooler – though now unpleasantly humid.

SuzyM14th October 2019 at 3:50pm

SuzyM2nd April 2019 at 3:10pm

My computer has been malfunctioning for the last 3 weeks, with BSODs and various error messages appearing randomly until it becomes unusable and unable to start, constantly rebooting.

Dad and I tried reinstalling Windows and also doing this on different blank hard drives but nothing was successful. He took it to a local computer repair shop in East Bentleigh on Wednesday 19/8 and the man there said it was likely a software fault; Microsoft does not allow Windows 8.1 installs any more as they want to move everyone onto Windows 10 (released this August). I thought it might be a motherboard or BIOS error, but apparently not?

It appeared OK for about a week, then began the BSODs again on Friday 29/8 until I was unable to start it. So much for the repairs! Dad installed Windows 8.1 retail on yet another hard drive – and this was done with no issues, so what was the repair man talking about?? – and now is running with no issues again – so far. I still have to reinstall various programs and updates yet again, which is tedious. If it malfunctions again it will likely be due to a memory or motherboard error somewhere; 3 separate hard disk failures in succession would be very unlikely. So it has been a very frustrating and mentally tiring few weeks!

I want to keep it as it has 8 GB of RAM and was my 2013 Christmas present (see 29/12/2013 entry). I was using an older spare one of Dad’s in the interim, but it is not quite as fast (only has 4 GB).

I wish I could get an iMac, but the basic 21.5 inch model starts at $1,549 (the lower Australia dollar does not help either), and goes up to $2,099 if more processing power is wanted. I want a computer that just works, and the Apple fits that wish, but it is simply not affordable, and a high-performance PC could be built for the lower price. As I am unlikely to gain employment it will remain a wish.

My teeth are also causing worry yet again; my lower left jaw has been aching at intervals, and there is a dark fissure in my first lower molar – the one I was concerned about back in 2013. I may have to go to the dentist again for a look, which I am dreading – it is my last lower molar without a filling.

My Health Care Card expires on 22 September, and I have reapplied for another, so now I wait. The /MyGov computer system is very dysfunctional, and Centrelink is chronically understaffed (you need to put aside a day just to try to get through on the phone), so trying to renew a card is even more of an ordeal than it used to be. At least it has been changed to annually from last year, not biannually.

SuzyM3rd April 2019 at 8:02am

Today is Mum and Dad’s 46th wedding anniversary, so we went out for a pub lunch – at the Marine Hotel in Brighton this time. I had my usual Chicken Parmagiana, which was nice.

The Brighton area is pleasant but expensive – a lot of large houses with abundant gardens and big trees (though overdevelopment is eroding the pleasantness here too). It is right next to the beach – Port Phillip Bay – so a lot of wealthy people live on Beach Road along the foreshore.

A few years ago I used to ride my bicycle on my early morning Sunday bike ride down South Road and along Beach Road for a way, but I stopped that after my 2008 surgery. I now just ride down Tucker Road to South Road, up some back streets and along East Boundary Road to North Road, and return along some more back streets; about a half-hour ride.

SuzyM2nd April 2019 at 3:10pm

My dentist visit today had no issues, thankfully – no more cavities, and the pain I was experiencing was likely due to my misaligned bite and lower left jaw playing up yet again. I saw Dr Smitha Gaikwad at Southland Dental Surgery and charges were $45 for the checkup and $100 for the clean – same as last year.

She did say when I asked that my remaining top wisdom teeth should ideally be extracted – something I have been thinking about myself – but I don’t currently have the finances. If one did get a cavity I would have it extracted in any case – they are not worth saving.

SuzyM5th April 2019 at 2:16pm

I am still vacillating over whether to use TiddlyWiki or plain HTML for my Journal, so I will keep this one up for now.

My lower left jaw and molars are still a bit achy so I am dreading the prospect of another cavity, or a new filling for the one already there (2nd lower molar, filled in 2013). I just want the appointment for this coming Wednesday over and done with as I am sick of worrying about it.

For my records, my current weight is around 52 kg. I weigh myself around once a week.

The weather yesterday was warm, but the sun didn’t come out until later in the day. A violent cold front – in the form of a horizontal funnel-shaped cloud – came over Melbourne around 8:30 p.m. or so, with strong winds and rain.

Someone at the Reddit r/Melbourne forum made up a map from images of Melbourne in 1945 and recently (around 2014). Looking through it I can see where my parents’ home would be build later in that decade – still open paddocks there – and also where Gran’s home is in 1945, though the resolution unfortunately is not very detailed. Screenshot links – 93 Tucker Road Bentleigh: 1 2 3 and 14 Bridge Street Elsternwick: 1 2 3

The liquidambar tree mentioned in my previous entry (24/2/2015) is still standing but looks very mutilated.

The local council (Glen Eira) have been felling a lot of mature street trees in the last few years as part of a so-called street tree “renewal” scheme, but many of the saplings planted die, or are vandalized, and seeing perfectly healthy mature trees removed is infuriating. The species planted are limited in variety – the Queensland Brush Box seems to be a common choice (the mature one outside my parents’ home is one), and it is a rather ugly and messy tree. I like the Flax-leaved Paperbark trees, which flower into creamy blossom around Christmas time, but many of these have been felled. Mawby Road has some nice large liquidambars, but some of these have also been removed.

SuzyM5th April 2019 at 2:22pm

A large liquidambar tree at the top of the hill (21 Pollina St) opposite our (my parents’) home appears to be in the process of being felled. It is the last such tree in that street. There used to be two at each end of Pollina Street (20, 90, 94) but all were felled from the 1990s onward. A great loss as they were nice shady deciduous trees, a haven on hot days.

Ongoing development (vandalism, in my view) has seen the loss of a lot of gardens and large trees, replaced with oversized houses or cramped multi-townhouse complexes. It is not improving the neighborhood and is detrimental to livability.

The root cause is the seemingly endless population growth Melbourne and other capital cities have been enduring for the last few decades, exacerbated by a housing market that favors investors rather than people simply wanting somewhere to live. Overseas investors and developers especially are contributing to declining quality of life here – they care nothing about the neighborhoods they buy into, but just want to make a profit. It is extremely wrong and if I were in charge I would ban overseas investing in residential properties. Access to shelter is a basic human right and the current system works against this. Slowing population growth (such as greatly reducing immigration) would also help reduce housing prices by reducing demand.

SuzyM2nd April 2019 at 3:10pm

I am vacillating between using a TiddlyWiki or normal HTML for my journal; they both have things I like and dislike. TW is more interactive and I can use tags – which I can’t do with plain static HTML. If I want to convert a Tiddlywiki file to static HTML pages, though, I have to go through a somewhat convoluted process in Node.js. The program is currently open-source, but may not be that way forever, and I prefer not to be dependent upon a program just to view and edit my files – HTML, in contrast, can be edited in any text editor as well as specialized website-making programs. But TW stores its files in text format, not in a database, so I can still access these. So it is a dilemma.

The weather has been hot – up to mid-30’s – and humid over the weekend, but a cool change and thunderstorms came through around midday today.

I made an appointment with the dentist at Southland Dental Surgery for next Wednesday for my annual checkup and clean (and hopefully nothing else!). I rather dread these for the expense and possibility of yet more cavities (I have 3 fillings for them to date). They like you to go every 6 months now, but it is just too expensive – dental was never included in Medicare, annoyingly.

Mum and Dad only go sporadically – mainly when something hurts – which is not good practice; they seem to have lost motivation.

What are my interests these days? My main focus since December 2006 is my “Star Warrior” creative project which involves lots of cool stuff such as aliens and spaceships. It is a creative outlet – daydreaming, writing, drawing and making a language (conlang). Much of my work for it is in digital form, on my computer – I hope it will last, given the uncertainty about the longevity of digital products.

I have mostly lost interest in real-world spaceflight, compared to my Journal entries of 10 years ago (!); I have become disillusioned with the attitudes of many in the online spaceflight community who dismiss environmental concerns (and activists) with contempt – the former believe humanity can solve its issues by colonizing space. Not for a long time yet, and not with current technology (at least, with great difficulty). It is an attitude that regards Earth as a disposable planet, and I am thoroughly disgusted by that.

SuzyM3rd April 2019 at 8:03am

Went to Chadstone this morning with Mum and saw Uncle Brian, which we often do now; had a coffee at Gloria Jeans. Getting there (Mum drives – I can’t) is an ordeal as traffic is very heavy – it is in the direction of Melbourne CBD – and can take 30 m or so, though it is only around 6½ km away. On a quiet day, such as during school holidays, it can take less than half that. A level crossing at Poath Rd and Hughesdale Station is also a cause of major frustrating delays.

Power went off abruptly yesterday afternoon – an appliance Mum plugged in tripped the Clipsal surge protector in the meter box. My computer was on as it normally is (for most of the day) so it went off also. A drawing I was working on got corrupted. I had backups at least, but from a couple of days ago. A UPS would be a consideration but they are expensive (starting at $100).

SuzyM2nd April 2019 at 3:09pm

A cool and gloomy overcast day, so not good for line-drying washing. Unfortunately the heat and humidity are coming back from tomorrow until Sunday.

One thing I like that has appeared in recent years are garden solar-powered lights; they look quite nice in the garden. I have a few to use indoors as night lights – plain white ones and color-changing ones (cycling red-green-blue).

SuzyM3rd April 2019 at 8:04am

In a dream last night I was at Gran’s home for dinner and my cousin Heather was there. It was evening. Being at Gran’s home (14 Bridge Street Elsternwick, sold and demolished in 1997) is a recurring dream – I miss going there very much.

A following dream was another recurring one: I was writing an essay for a school exam but froze up and could not think of anything to write. This also happened in reality in my last full year at school (Year 11, 1987); I never finished Year 12 as I had a nervous breakdown and left after Term 1. Something I have regretted ever since, for obvious reasons.

I wish very much that I could somehow time-travel and live my life again and make different decisions so that I did not end up where I am now (long-term unemployed and broke with no future). It’s one of my favorite topics for daydreams.

SuzyM3rd April 2019 at 8:04am

To Southland this morning with parents for our daily cappuccino, a ritual we have done for years now. I have mine with skim milk and no sugar (use a sweetener). Cappuccinos are now around $3.60 for a small one, unfortunately, and they are not getting cheaper. It is perhaps an unnecessary expense, but one has to have some enjoyments in life.

SuzyM3rd April 2019 at 8:05am

Hot and humid again today. I can’t wait for summer to be over so I can pile on layers of clothing!

Parents went to Church (Bentleigh-Korean Baptist Church) as usual this morning. I have been doing the weekly newsletter for it since 2004!

We had a McDonald’s meal for dinner – something we only do every few months (over $26 for 3!). It is not a particularly satisfying meal, and I don’t know how people can have that sort of food every week, several times a week. We used to go on Sunday drives to country areas outside Melbourne, and after going to the Dandenongs we would sometimes have dinner at a McDonald’s – think it was the one still on the corner of North and Springvale Roads. The hill along the road further east that slopes down toward Mt Dandenong still appears in my dreams.

Had an issue with TiddlyWiki not being able to link to external local files (other .html webpage files in this case, in my Journal). Found out I have to write the link in conventional .html markup, not WikiText.

SuzyM3rd April 2019 at 8:05am

We (parents and I) went to Southland shopping center as usual this morning for a cappuccino and wander around; I walked there as I normally do (in about 45 minutes or 4.3 km). This routine has been going on for years.

A random older man wished me “Happy Valentine’s Day” on my walk to Southland, which was odd but nice! I have never had a boyfriend, and seem unlikely to in this lifetime.

There was heavy rain and storms yesterday afternoon to this morning; humid tropical weather.

SuzyM5th April 2019 at 2:37pm

I went to the city today by train (Frankston line) to buy a new Darth Vader comicbook – something I only do rarely, but this one features one of my favorite villains :-). There were no delays or incidents during the journey, at least, though the weather is unpleasantly warm and humid (until Sunday).

I do not enjoy traveling to the city (Melbourne CBD) as it is crowded, noisy and dirty; I much prefer local shopping centers/malls such as Southland, which are enclosed – though these are privately-owned and the variety of shops are limited; bookshops are scarce and there are no specialist ones like Minotaur Entertainment in the CBD.

I was dismayed to see that a house in Caulfield visible from the railway line had been demolished and the land razed – 3 Normanby Road, one that had been there for decades. It was the sole house in an open oval, which was a bit unusual, and had a large garden and backyard. Units are to be built there, sadly and predictably enough. I remember reading a local news article about it some years ago; the owners had not wanted to sell.

SuzyM5th April 2019 at 3:01pm

Thought I would try using Tiddlywiki to keep an offline journal this year.

Not much has happened so far. January was cooler than usual – a mercy, after the four consecutive 40°C days of last year. The weather has warmed up again this week, though at least it looks as though we will escape 40°C days this year.

My sister Michele and her husband Chris Perona visited Melbourne for the week – they departed today – and Mum and Dad went into Melbourne CBD on Tuesday by train to have lunch with them. They were staying in a hotel in Melbourne.

Michele and Chris’s Facebook pages are full of photos of their various meals at restaurants (including this one taken at Bergerac French Restaurant, 9/2/2015) – wonder how they can afford to eat out so often? Michele is still very overweight – close to obese, in fact – and doesn’t look to have lost any weight despite having her gallbladder out last October. She is around my height – perhaps a couple of centimeters smaller – and must weight 70 kg at least. I am around 53 kg, within the healthy range for my height (160 cm) (I was around 60 kg 2 years ago!).

Mum’s 77th birthday was last Wednesday 4th, so we went to McKinnon Hotel for lunch. It was nice, but cost around $140! I had Chicken Parmigiana, as I usually do ($25); an enormous serving but I managed to eat most of it. Didn’t need dinner, though! Photo links: Mum at McKinnon Hotel, 4/2, Dad at McKinnon Hotel, Suzy (me) at McKinnon Hotel.

My right thumbnail somehow got infected and has been sore for a few weeks; I went to the GP at East Bentleigh Medical Group (where my parents go). Dr Lapin gave me a short antibiotic course to complete; he couldn’t see any obvious cause for the infection.

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I am Suzanne Bronwyn McHale, the creator of this wiki! I was born in 1970, am female, and live in Melbourne, Australia.

Photos below: Me in 24 December 2015; 9 November 2016; 26 January 2019; 1 January 2020; 7 February 2021.

Suzy, 24/12/2015 Suzy, 9/11/2016 Suzy, 26/1/2019 Suzy, 1/1/2020 Suzy, 7/2/2021

Journal information

This Journal was created with an interactive TiddlyWiki program and exported as a single static HTML page for my public website. TiddlyWiki is a Javascript-based HTML wiki that can be edited in one’s browser of choice, and is quite versatile in what can be done with it. I find it quite fun to use!

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